The best week of my school life.

the past 2 weeks have really been a crazy time, and if i may say, the best 2 weeks of my life in jc so far, in fact, i'd go as far as to say my best time in school in... as far as i can remember?? lol the last 2 weeks have been focused mainly on orientation 09 and i must admit my decision to apply to be an ogl has turned out to be one of the best decisions i've ever made, i will never forget my experience as an OGL, and call it brainwashed if u want, but i really think i love AC now! :D

the past week was orientation 09, monday to thursday being games, friday OGLs had to go back for lessons while J1s had mock lectures then at night was campfire!!! :DD Mrs Chan, our principal gave OGLS the following monday off, like a holiday for our contribution to the school and alot of us went out to watch movie and stuff. man the past week has really been a blast man. i love my OG ARAGORN!! they're all super fun people man. even though they took quite a while to warm up to each other, thats typically of all j1s, but im really glad they grew together! ARAGORN SMACK THAT! :D :D :D :D

now that orientation is over, and lessons have started again, something inside me just feels amiss, its like our the best one week in my school life, i need to go back to studying, to catching up for 5 days of lessons missed. even though orientation was tiring and EXTREMELY stressful to the body, i will never exchange it for anything. the OGL friends i've made, the bonding i had with my OG, the times the OGLS spent early at 6am in the morning and late at 12.30am in the morning hahaha..., those were unforgetable times, my only hope is that we will stay together with this common experience at the back of our head. AC OGL 09, LIVE THE LEGACY!

pictures are all in facebook, LOTS OF EM! Once an OGL, Always an OGL!

haha not updated for awhile, i think i've started the school term on a good note, a much better note than the previous years, God is really good, i guess the reason why i'm feeling so good in school is directly related to how im keeping my walk on track during this period of time, quiet time is just too essential, so is prayer, just gotta keep it up, God never forsakes.

been very busy during this period of time, alot of school stuff, training 3 times a week, OGL training and stuff, i must say i enjoy my clan, CRUSADERS, its honestly tiring to be all high energy and stuff as much as people say im a crazy person. lol even my mind and body has its limits. but i really enjoy the company of my clan OGLS, crusaders all the way!

volleyball team, you know what? we're starting to train like we actually know how to play volleyball, lol its been almost a year, less than a year la , 7, 8 months, and finally our trainings starting to look decent, like we're actually a VOLLEYBALL team. haha God is good, this is why we pray every training, he'll bless and when he does, you wont even know it till the blessings overflow.

things are cool now, church is as always with the accountability group thingy, honestly im not all optimistic about it, but God will reveal in his own timing what his purpose is, things always work out. thats my motto. ;) nothing much i can say really, not many updates to update, lol sorry jerome. my life is scandal free.

after the horrid past few weeks, been thinking and trying to get my walk with God back on track, been doing my quiet time and meditating not just reading and rushing off, and its true that God really doesnt turn his back on those that want to seek him or turn away from wrong ways to want to come back to him. its really true :)

anyway wednesday thursday and today, 3 days of ogl camp(day camp) 8am to 8pm but all 3 days end at different timings, all earlier than stated, but still extremely tiring, it really kills you man, but at the end of the day everyone's still screaming and jumping, i guess its really a choice, mind over body. ARE YOU TIRED? :)

ogl trng camp is fun the least to say, wldnt call it a blast cos im really tired, but if its one thing i wldnt miss the camp for, its the friendships that i've made, espacially with my clan mates, CRUSADERS! bout half of them or slightly more, were strangers to me before, but now we're friends, and its cool to make new friends, feels like a less intense version of CCAAB cos we're all sorta "leaders" anyway. and its cool la its cool, espacially today, after the camp ended we went to holland v for dinner and it was fun, it was good stuff. :)

verse of moment

As they make music they will sing,

All my fountains are in you.

Psalm 87:7

All our "sources of life" are in him.

you know ur having a bad run of luck in the past few weeks when

1. u fall of a bike and injure urself in sentosa
2. u drop ur phone while on a bike in sentosa 4 days later(and the phone spoils.)
3. u have arguments with 2 million people
4. ur parents slam you all of a sudden for something u've been doing since the beginning of time.
5. u get blisters while playing basketball when u never get blisters while playing barefooted since the beginning of time
6. u get splinters in ur hand from wooden CHOPSTICKS. ridiculous.
7. u get diarrheoa from eating pizza
8. if only the lakers lost to portland then i'd have another item to add to the list.

what i need now is a sabbatical. (hey living is hard work too!) like some 1 year away from people in isolation. how is it possible that i start every year in such an amazing manner, its almost as if God's talking to me like "hey most people are great starters and bad finishers, so im gonna make u different, ur gonna suck at starting so u'll finish with a bang!"

i'm obviously angsting. i hope 2009 doesnt last forever, cos im sure not optimistic. whoever reads this, pray for me.
i dunno where Caleb's gone.

Happy new year!

one year has passed, grown alittle older, grown alittle taller, when u look back, u just cant believe u used to be THAT young.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

on 31st december wednesday, qbc (my church) had watchnight service for people to give thanks and share about their lives as well as countdown to the new year. before the service at 8, my cia(cell) JAM had potluck dinner in church, it was quite fun la, and the food was good, i'll give that!


yam came back to Singapore in the early afternoon so bert yam and i went to west mall to get vanessa's birthday present whose birthday is on the 31st decemebr. oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA! oh yeah i forgot to say, welcome back yam, as corny as it may sound, u were missed, greatly, so its great to have you back :)


on the way to westmall, jenisse said her mum didnt allow sleepover at her house anymore, we were originally planning that after youth leaders said no sleepover in church this year, i wasnt unhappy or anything, lol i was like okay, but jenisse was pissed man, so i can totally emphathise man. but anyway in the end, auntie phui fan lent us one of her multi houses that had no tenants to have our sleepover, it really was quite fun to be honest, more than 10 people, and we were just chilling and having fun man, a great way to spend new year really.




a couple of us spent the whole morning up and ended up sleeping around 7am, lol we slept till 11 and we went to tiong bahru plaza to eat lunch before going to play bball and going home again, pretty lazy to blog details because its quite late now, when i got home from auntie phui fan's house it was just in time for dinner, after dinner, i spent some time on the computer and i just konked out man, i woke up just awhile ago, the time now is 12.57am 2nd january, and im supposed to go sentosa with the guys today, ridiculously tiring, lets hope it all works out, after all, we're all growing older, these times together arent gonna last forever.

yesterday

yesterday i went to sentosa with the 4 lau sisters, timmy, zach lejon bert and yuetong, it was the most retarded outing to sentosa i have ever had in my life i tell you.

we were spose to meet at harbourfront mrt at 10.30am, lau sisters left their house at 10.25, timmy and i left queenstown at 10.30 and yuetong reached harbourfront at 9 plus. when we all gathered, it was 11.30. talk about punctuality.

the day before i suggested bringing monopoly to sentosa and we can play on the beach, cos it wld be so fun. it was the stupidest idea i have ever suggested in my life. when we reached sentosa, i opened the monopoly box and found there were no dice. so timmy took out his poker cards and used ace to queen as 1 to 12 and we just pick a card as our dice. gosh i already feel stupid typing about this. it was so dumb we got bored after 2 rounds.

then we played volleyball for 5 mins. captains ball for 10 mins, bridge for 4 minutes, and sat around and stoned. then charisse delisse elisse bert and i went to get food from 7 eleven. cup noodles in sentosa.. hm. great.

then charisse delisse and i went to rent bikes, and my bike was seriously messed up, i fell down twice, the first time when i was during a sharp turn on sandy concrete, the 2nd time when i was doing a sharper turn on sandier concrete. my injuries aint that bad, but its the worst ive had in years, i've got good fortune not getting injured, i guess falling of a bike 2wice shows my luck's running out. lol.

then we went to ABC brickworks hawker centre to eat dinner, its behind the ikea in queenstown, whoa, was my best meal in a long time i tell you, we were all eating like babarians, cept the sisters, lejon timmy zach bert and i were just ENJOYING man. we ALL spent like more than 10 bucks each. and u have to consider that its hawker centre prices, and the portions are way larger than normal places, in other words, we ate, ALOT.

was a fun day, but my injuries hurt lol who cares la huh. the year's ending, we're all growing older, im going emo. shucks. during the bus ride to ABC, charisse was talking to me about pastor eric talking to excons about relationships and stuff, got me thinking alot.
i may have gone alittle too far, but its never too late to stop.

HEY everybody! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YALL!

today i woke up late for church service, i reached church AFTER the service ended. just in time to get all my presents. NO i did not plan it, i overslept and nobody woke me up, i was LOOKING forward to the service hmph.

anyways my father's side family came down to singapore, my father's two sisters and his brother so it was like 19 people altogether wow! and to be honest it was one of my best christmas-es in recent years, i dunno why but it was really awesome, interacting with cousins and stuff, and to be honest, my siblings and i arent really close to my cousins, but today we really talked and just laughed and it was just a great time man.

we had lunch then we spent the whole day walking around vivo, then went for dinner at arcadia, then we went back to the hotel where my uncle and auntie were staying and we just talked nonsense, watched tv and laughed lol, really an awesome christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONCE AGAIN TO YALL OUT THERE :D
and kimberly by the time you find my blog its probably year 2100, :) merry christmas 2100!

still no push to blog man, prolly gonna close it soon or sth. lol.

i just realised, the last time i posted was one month ago. where have i been?? what have i been doing??? okay i'm like talking to myself. man its been a mad ride the past month, i dunno where to start, i dont feel like typing, i dont feel like talking and i sure dont feel like blogging.

but since i have nothing to do anyway, might as well. havent been taking pictures and when i do , its all been posted onto facebook, yeah im into facebook now yeah, lol ever since i created facebook for ccaab pictures. so pictures from jenisse's birthday dinner, my taiwan trip, volleyball's sentosa trip and soon to be posted ywav camp photos, all up on facebook yeah.

with that i basically summed up everything impt that has happened over the past month. dunno what have i been up to, but seriously, everything other than physically, i've just been floating aimlessly like a ghost, and its sad, really sad. got my piorities all wrong, got the order all mixed up, lol i dunno whats impt to me now really, i mean, cept for God, everything esle is just a blur, and to be honest, im not all that holy polly. my eyes were opened during ywav camp, and seriously man, i've got some work to do.

i doubt anyone comes here anymore since i've not been blogging for so long. hahah is good, dont see no problem with it, cos i'm not posting no exciting entry here, im just a bored guy with nothing to do. i went to play soccer and eat dinner with jerome and company yesterday. he asked me what are the 4 most important things in my life now. NOW, at this current moment. i said God jerome Jenisse Jeremyam. of course things arent gonna always remain this way, but for now thats the way it is, in no particular order with regard to the latter 3.
i hope you like my christmas present for you.the truth


When thirst does not bother
Rivers and oceans surround
When plants begin wither
Not a well can be seen around

We cant stop for a rest
Knowing time waits for none
Almost seems like life’s a test
Too many things to be done

This nightmare never seems to end
Agonizingly each step we take
Guiding us, an invisible hand
Leading us all the way till we awake

The first 2 verses describe how i feel now, extremely tired, 80% emotionally, 20% spiritually, not gonna lie about it man. the last verse describes what i KNOW. God will deliver me, you, us, like he's always done.

Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged,

be strong and courageous

for the Lord your God

will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9

been a long while..

been super long since i last posted eh. for that matter its been super long since i've last VISITED this blog, no motivation, no drive to do anything, im like a floating ghost.. lol..

nothing to blog about, maybe one day i'll start blogging again, hi daniel and all the people who have been tagging, yes aiwee................


what am i supposed to do now? im tired of running.
after you or away. 2 paths.is it the time to give up?

why are we so weak.

i realised i have not posted for the longest time ever, not been updating, basically i've not even been coming to my blog. alot of things have been happening and i've simply had no mood whatsoever to come and pen down what has been going on in my life.


well PW oral presentation is over, chinese A levels is over, volleyball training has restarted, i became an ogl, we're gonna re-begin our ywav camp planning because the camp theme has been changed, yam's birthday just passed HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Jenisse's birthday is coming, Eric and Bell's wedding is coming, my grandma's birthday is coming.


those are just small little updates. to be honest, i dont even know why i didnt feel like blogging all this while, its almost as if blogging puts me off. My walk with God has been in its worst state ever the past month, but i know at the end of the day, all it takes is a conscious effort and discipline to return to God that will get me back on track, cos God never forsakes. i've been trying very hard to get back on track, to re-ignite that flame, and maybe thats the problem, doing all of it myself and not committing to God.


this committing to God thing struck me really hard as i was walking down the street last week, its like all we need to do is commit everything to God, and really, God will just TAKE CARE of everything FOR REAL, im not kidding, you will feel peace, love and most of all hope that at the end of whatever ur going thru, all will be well. But we just simply cannot commit it to God, we just cant let go! WHY! i must really confess, as far a christian can drift away from God after being born again, i think i've done it man, and i really regret, but my testimony has just been horrible but i know God's waiting for me to come back, and i will go back.

you know if ur backsliding, will you go back?