pastor eric says when u say ur bored, it implies u are self centred, and ur needs are not met. haha absurd but logical. BUT at this point of time, im disregarding all references my next statement has to my ego. I AM BORED.
okay since its spreading like wildfire, i'll let yall who read my blog(that of which im guessing is like less than 5 people, HOPEFULLY, u see this lack of confidence and low self esteem? u can help me by tagging, that will greatly improve my esteem! :D okay laughter aside, my paternal grandmother passed away on sunday, my mum recieved a phonecall from johor, yes granny is malaysian, then she had a heartattack so my mum and sis went immediately over to msia where my father already is.
i decided to stay back in singapore cos it was too much of a rush so im going to msia tml(tuesday) after school with my bro, the wake's on wednesday. yesterday after my mum and sis left, my bro left soon after to go back to his university hostel, so the house was left to me. the whole empty cold lonely pathetic house. okay lonely doesnt describe the hse, it describes me. lol, it was weird, i watched tv for like 5 hours cos i had no mood to do anything.
frankly i'm almost not affected, to the point i feel weird, she's my closest grandparent but we're still not amazingly close, perhaps its cos i was expecting it already. and so im gonna miss the entire wednesday, im so gonna die with my work.
i love camp rock.LOL, random, but important. if you dont know what it is, ur either above 40 or..... u live in a cave. its a new disney channel original movie starring demi lovato and joe jonas, guess where my current blog song comes from????? :D
really feels weird to be at home all by myself. today i came home to the house i left in the morning and it was in the same exact same condition, the windows closed to that exact same degree, nothing changed, nothing moved. i am so getting married. can u imagine going home to an empty house after work? depressionable.i dont think this word exists but in my dictionary it basically means, able to cause depression. :D
when ur loved one leaves, how would you feel? my friend said she never wants to think about it. but mental preparation works wonders. at least i think it does. does it?
oh wait, btw for all who read this post, im okay, trust me when i say it, lol. people dont seem to believe me when i say im okay, im NOT suppressing depression or feelings or whatever, i AM okay. thank you for the thought though. if you even thought of anything. lol.
oh wait did i forget to say i lost my phone last friday? yeah i lost my phone last friday, and no im not getting a new one, i dont want. at least not yet. :D
WHO MADE CHINA HIGH?
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