just went out with jerome to eat lunch and play some pool. im telling you, there is something about pool, 2 man pool, not 10 people "lets all take turns to shoot a ball once an hour" kind of pool, which is extremely calming. i mean seriously.
had a long talk with jerome, its just fantastic to release everything that its building up inside your heart, things that you know you shouldnt be saying, but things you know are real. things you know if you were to say it to any other person, u'd surely be judged but to your closest friends, they'll just fully understand what the hell you are going through.
on the way home i was just thinking. as Christians we always say we live for the audience of One, the Lord, that we are not supposed to care about what other people say but we live and worship freely with full knowledge that it is only God we are answerable to. but lets be realistic, how easy is that? We live in a world full of people, surrounded by people everyday, to live with disregard to the people around is just utterly ridiculous. imagine if you go around shouting and screaming everyday how great God is. what are the odds of you being arrested and thrown into jail for public disturbances?
so what are we supposed to do? we need to balance right? Right. thats what everyone does. thats why babies who have a mind of their own become idiots who walk blindly like idiots to work everyday from the time they sell their soul to the world around the time they become an adult. i've been thinking, many people say the period of 13-20 is the make or break period for a person. what kind of person he grows up to become, how influential he becomes. this period REALLY is the toughest emotionally and mentally for people. but why? isnt it because people in this age group have a mind and heart of their own? but the bloody world is telling them to sell it so they can fit in. earn some money and die without giving a damn what happens to it.
REAL growing up doesnt mean become a solemn old fogey. it means KNOWING who you are and never changing. God doesnt want you to mature by smiling less.
JEREMIAH 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you Hope and a future.
i do believe that future doesnt include losing your personality and soul. Stick true to yourself and never waver. I know myself and i dont intend to let that me change. Even if shit does come with it. If the Lord inspires you and out of the overflow of your heart, you CANT HELP but go to the streets to scream and shout how Great the Lord is. Dont hold back. if you get arrested so be it. at least you know you have a soul of your own.
Tiny disclaimer: If your heart is not centred on God/Goodness if your a non-believer. and you intend to destroy the world because ur heart tells you so. this post does not apply to you. its best you lose your soul and walk around blindly like most of the adults in this world do. cheers.
