tuesday is supposed to be my slackest day of the week other than friday. then why the heck am i so tired? today i was really dead, by the time school ended my eyes were half shut.
then again, after school i went to run, so i cldnt have been THAT tired. but now that i've come back from my run. i AM really very tired. lol evident from the nonsensical manner in which i am blogging. for the first time in my wretched jc life, i did work, yes PROPER work in the ridiculously long break i have every tuesday morning, then i went for econs consultation. GASP, other than KI in which consultations i usually do not volunteerily request for, i have never gone for a single other consultation. yes, i am shocked too. looks like i am entering THE mode. yes, THE mode.
the one where i sit and study and i look up and my watch and realise that 3 hours have passed and i feel extremely satisfied. disclaimer. i THINK i am ENTERING THE mode. i have NOT entered THE mode. so for you all who are going "gasp! caleb is studying, things are getting grimmer, better cancel all my meals to prepare for hurricane Alevels!", halt your sheeps and relax. theres more to life than studying. :)
running is tiring. and i suck at it. officially. im a wuss in a boy's body. i was tired after running 1.6km. yes scream and shout, im gay! time to start training. evidently volleyball is not a very strenous sport. lol.
im sitting of my black chair of wisdom in my room of the undead and im thinking..
What is a "friend"? Who is YOUR "friend"? i dunno why but i just started thinking about it recently. weird question to ask because we all seem to have A best friend, and that 2 or 3 or 12 or 13 big clique. but so often when i sit down with a person and the conversation drifts off to friends. people will say "come to think of it, im not even really that close to blah blah, we just hang out together forever and have fun." lol. so who are your friends?
i once said i wish i didnt have emotions. true, the highs are exhilarating and come on, who doesnt like the feeling of joy, of pure ecstacy because ur friends treat you like a king on ur birthday, who doesnt enjoy the euphoria when ur cinderella tells you she loves/likes you too.
but what about the time when you wait forever for her and one day you realise that she's really been just, JUST a friend all along. what about the day you find out you've flunk ur A levels after 2 years of hard work, yes, hard work. what about the day you find out that ur father or mother has cancer. what about that day?
whose gonna support you when ur falling down what seems like the bottomless pit. whose gonna stand beside you when ur studying forever and you feel that you're wasting every second of your life and the stress starts to weigh like a million tonnes. who will you call when that time comes? is it worth it then? i used to think it wasnt. now i think it is. afterall, what are friends for.
but then again sometimes friends fail. :)
joshua 1:9.
