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today is officially a good day. i have no idea why, but i was happy at the end of the day, the KI lesson is just the bomb, i am totally loving my ki class, i dunno whether its the teacher or what, but my class is really closely knit for a class that hasnt been together too long, i mean 2 months, it aint that long a time, but class is fun!


i had 2.4 today. omg, God is the bomb, it started drizzling, is that how u spell it? okay anyway yeah it started doing that during my 4th lap, how awesome is that? and it was cooling somemore and when my class finished running, the drizzle stopped. :O yes. look at my previous post, God didnt exactly DESTROY the sun for 15 mins, but i'd take it anyway! awesome stuff!



okay my room temperature now is 34.7 degrees! AHHHHHHHHHHH yes aiwee, it aint exactly melbourne heat, but i DONT LIKE IT anyway. yes there are actually things in life that i feel SPOILS life. lol but life is great anyway.



overall actually today is as boring a day as it can possibly get, but i feel so light hearted, maybe its cause i dun have to run 2.4 for another one year. lol. good to get that off my back. NO DONT ask for my timing. yes dont! the tests and project work and all that are starting to pile up. Whooooooo! so fun.



okay, i feel bored. :O why do i feel bored? i think jc life is so boring. but its a queer type of boring, usually boring = slow paced, but this is fast paced boredom! :O what a weird weird thing dont you think?


i think the govt shld implement a four day work week, giving us wednesday off. dont you think? help us catch up with the mega load of "paper(s) that have been put to bad use" that is(are) dumped on our laps each and every single &*$&#@*(#&@#@^& day. yes! i AM beginning to talk nonsense!




to end off the day, i shall present you with a quote from divya of my KI class.
" Mr tan doesnt not like me, he just likes to play around with me, no no, he just messes around with me."
this is why i say its bad to be too smart, humanities scholars talk funny :)

the weather is making me....unhappy.........

33.6 degrees celsius.

yes thats my room temperature. what is wrong with this world! today mitchell and i were walking across to the sports complex after school to go gym, the sun was TOTALLY blinding me, and i was looking down somemore. this....is......madness!!



today my mood was just.. moody.... the weather is SO turn off, and there are ppl EVERYWHERE wearing jackets! omg, its like if u spray abit of pepper and seasoning, they can be eaten for lunch. lol........ gosh my days are becoming so uneventful i no longer see the need for this blog.



oh! today this guy came to our school to talk about cyber wellness and all that crap, how to be a good blogger and gamer etc. and he say good bloggers inspire. tsk i was thinking, "so... good bloggers are like caleb.." thats like too high a bar to reach dont you think! :D



the above paragraph is an example of what you'd call small talk, its what people do when they run out of things to say. oh man, i think im gonna post an emo post soon, make things more interesting. LOL. tml is 2.4 run! DEAR GOD, please destroy the sun and recreate it after 15 mins!


my soul is in the worst possible condition it can possibly be.Bring me back o Lord!
Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all this shall be added onto you. Matthew 6:33

lol thank you all the people who have tagged my tagboard, all those sweet and wonderful comments have truly warmed my heart! muahahahaha


last weekend was my busiest weekend ever, i had so much work to do, from friday night, i already had a schedule planned out to make sure i wldnt have to do last min work. i was so organised that sunday night, i had nothing to do.


this weekend is my freeiest weekend ever, i have so little work, i didnt even bother to think about what is it i have to do. now i'm not able to finish them. LOL. ridiculous how the human mind works.


nothing esle to type. bye :)

i feel really happy tonight. this afternoon we had youth and today was games, but lets not talk about ywav games, ywav games are always a....hmmmm.... unique time. :)

but tonight i feel good, i dunno why, maybe cos i get to talk to so many people whom i want to talk to on msn. and i had a really good conversation with cuifen, its one of more meaningful conversations ive had this whole year. lol. i shall therefore declare cuifen is nice!

life is weird. but it is great. its all with regard to ur perspective. tough doesnt equal not great. life is tough, it always will be, but thats what makes it great aint it? :) life is great!

God is Great. Even if u dont see it.

yay today i went cf after not being able to go the past few weeks due to volleyball. and i really had alot of fun making friends with new people and just interacting with christians once again.


today when helsa walked past me, she asked me how was my life and i gave her the standard caleb "fantastic" replies. and she said how i was always happy and smiling when she saw me. then i thought about it, my class people certainly wldnt agree. lol but do you really have to be all jumping around and smiling so broadly when ur happy? happiness is temporary, joy is eternal, when you have joy and peace in your heart, you dont have to show it to feel it. it will always be within you. you dont have to show it. :)


my previous posts have all been about how God's plans dont coincide with me. after coming out of the storm, i find it ridiculous i could have actually thought that way. isnt it amazing how you always think the grass on one side is greener than the other. well thats rubbish. God's plan for us is always eternal and great and it always benefits us eventually whether its a short term thing or long term thing. i cant believe i always go into the "why is God doing this" mode. its absolutely childish and dumb. gosh, but im definately gonna be doing it afew more hundred times in the next few decades, provided i'm still alive. oh well. God is great. Thank goodness he forgives.


LIFE IS GREAT!
tired does not equal sad.

ever since i stepped out of ccab (co curricular activities branch), i have not stopped thinking about volleyball, since i saw the pj vs nyjc match, which was incredible, yes i mean incredible, imagine perfect spikes and superb plays. my mind has not shifted to ANYTHING esle at all. i laid on my bed for an hour, doing NOTHING, just thinking, just imagining, and every thought that filtered thru my head, was DIRECTLY related to volleyball. omg. im going mad.

i feel like training, i feel like training everyday, oh man im so desperate. i didnt forgo my passion for soccer to learn a new sport for leisure sake. i freaking wanna winnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... this is exactly what i felt for BB AQ. i wanted to win so badly. but at the end of the day, if one lacks the talent, how far exactly can he go? lol forget it man, i dont care already, one year's time i'll look back at this post. after we win A div. :D

Its all in God's hands. 8 guys remaining, sure afew more to come. JIA YOU!

bounce back bounce back. the serve that haunts. Gotta bounce back. one more year one more chance. gotta jump higher, gotta spike harder, one more year to do it all! Ahhhh.remind me why again i made this choice?

LIFE IS GREAT. yes it is.

today bell ring at 1.50, i was home at 1.55, lol just kidding i was home at 2.20. cool eh, i flew home hahahaha 2nd consecutive day, it feels good to get my afternoon naps back! shiok! yesterday was 4pm to 8pm, today is 3.30pm to 5pm. good ah, it feels so wonderful, my energy is coming back! so is my crap! LOL.


finally get some work done. gosh. too much too much. lol. but still, life IS great. :) i really have nothing esle to say, cos sleeping isnt exactly as eventful as we all wld like it to be. but it is certainly one of the greatest pastimes God ever created, can u imagine if we were robots with no sleep? we'd all be JOYful! HAHAHAHA just kidding, i know im horrible, but its quite funny dont you think? if u didnt get what i just said... hmm move on with life and be happy :)

DEEP IN THOUGHT

i wont lie and pretend theres a rainbow in the sky and the roses are growing over. i am tired, and i rarely say it, but i AM tired. physically mentally, u name it, i'm experiencing it. lol. it aint a good feeling. time is passing so ridiculously fast, work is piling up incredibly fast and i am finding it amazingly hard to keep up.


lol jc is one heck of a phase of life man. not only does nothing seem to go your way, it even seems like things are going AGAINST your way. lol.

okay this is not a complaint post, i dont complain. lol. i whine, cos according to a certain someone, whining builds frenships.lol. the good thing about all these is that i noe its gonna end super quick, cos everything is passing so fast, its gonna be june so fast, then one more june is all we need to start getting worried we're gonna flop. which usually wldnt happen anyway, cos things always turn out well. somehow. lol.


and for those emo kids who think i'm very quiet now or im a changed man or whatever, jus understand that i dont drink red bull for breakfast and im human, so being high every second just wouldnt work for my body. lol. just kidding su ann, dont blow up while reading this. haha.


i wonder what are things gonna be like 2 years from now, or 1 and a half for that matter. we're all growing up so fast, now its just weird to go mad and "BE YOURSELF". we all have to enter that adult stage and we all have to mature and behave like we actually are adults, where is the fine line between being urself and being immature? When the difference between black and white is so thin, where would you stand? We talk about desire, sure we'll all want to do the right things, have a smooth flowing journey in life. but if the energy and strength just aint there, what are you gonna do?


btw, as much as you think this is an emo post. it is not. and tired does not equal sad. in fact, i am happy, peaceful and any other adjective you can use to describe 5 year old kids prancing around toadstools in green pastures under the bright cheery sun and a rainbow, you cld probably use it on me. Life is great :D !



Be courageous and strong, for the lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

good job guys, we actually managed to win dunman high, good job. :) nice one zijian.


after the match we went back to school for training. its fun la, at the same time tiring. gonna have to push really hard to get my studies back on track. sure aint easy to juggle a sport and studies thats for sure. doesnt help when ur cca starts at a ridiculous time of 6pm when everyone's ending theirs.


"this" kind of things make me think, what is God thinking. Sure you look at the scenario, you look at the circumstances, all this dictate what happened, but is it possible that i'm totally in the freaking wrong place? i wont hide the fact i was disappointed and upset, i was this close, this close to losing it. how much more must i do, how long more must i go through all this. anyway, thanks jen. u helped alot.


when your plans dont coincide with God's, its easy to say trust God and believe in his higher thoughts, but when it happens time and time again, will u be able to say the same thing with the same aggression and certainty, with the same fire that burned in ur eyes when u first became a christian? Its hard. its horribly hard. way too hard. to do it by ourselves. but since theres nth we can do about it anyway, might as well trust him. But of course, at the end of the day, even if we are given the choice to do something about it. Trusting God is always the wiser route aint it. dont argue, it is. lol.


Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all this shall be given unto you. Matthew 6:33


somehow this verse comforts me alot better than jeremiah 29:11 at this point of time. It brings me back to reality, it helps me know that its not us that matter. its God.

"....plans to prosper you and to give u a hope" jermiah 29:11


When nothing is going your way. what do you do?
Do you know michael jordan, the greatest basketball player ever, was dropped from his university team cos he was apparently too lousy? if you dont understand why i typed this sentence, you probably wldnt understand this entire post. lol. goodnite and be happy :)