today is quite a boring day to be honest! short and sweet day, we had lessons as usual, and im finding it harder and harder to understand math, i dunno whether its just cos its the topic or wad, but im finding it tough! LOL
worst part is i dun ask questions cos i wanna figure it out myself! But joy helped me quite abit already so i just need to catch up now. im lagging horribly behind in terms of tutorial, i hope i can catch up, this topic is really tough! sequences and stuff, i sucked at it in secondary school too! darn i hope h2 math is not all like this! and im starting to find chem hard too, and im starting to find econs too!
and the worst thing is, im starting to find a lack of time to catch up too! LOL its okay, life is good and all things work out in the end! LOL
anyway today after school, yam and timho came to acjc to "visit me" LOL thank you thank you, thats what im supposed to say rite? i said hi to them, and went home! hahaha thats so bad, but there was nothing we were going to do anyway and they were so free! you know, i feel like joining a second cca, its like i feel like i wanna be more active in school and stuff but i noe i just dont want to go back on my commitment and join soccer,its a calling i will stick to.
talking about cca, i havent gone for the morning meetings of CF the past 2 days, cos i have been feeling very tired spiritually and i know i wldnt be able to focus if i went for the meetings, it'll all just be a fomality, so i stayed by myself to did quiet time, todays quiet time for me was very good, i sat at the round stone table at the bleachers all by myself just reflecting about what has been going on and the condition of my heart, it was really fruitful! my devotion was about listening to what God has to say and always being alert and attentive to God's will for us! i've so not been doing that, the reason why i've been so tired lately, i feel, is just cos i've been doing way too many things without God in mind! all that's gonna change now! i'll work hard to make God the centre of my life, my focus! All reading this, please pray for me! thank you!
there always comes a time when you feel its meaningless to justify anything.
