OKAY its been approx one billion years since i've last posted.
only two reasons, no make it 10.
1. No mood
2. No energy
3. No mood
4. No energy
5. No mood
6. No energy
7. No mood
8. No energy
9. No mood
10. No energy
lol yes but i've decided to post today. i wonder why.
to briefly summarise everything i've gone thru the past weeks, (everything = omgoshly alot)
i begin by saying, yes i did not run for council, and dont ask me why, i cant sit on 2 million boats at the same time, if u didnt get it, smile and move on with life. :)
next i'm no longer in soccer yes, dont ask me why and yes i quit for the 2nd time. and my current and will be for 2 years cca is volleyball. and yes i'm still in CF even though its no longer my main and only cca, and no, dont ask me why i joined the iron ladies cca, and no, i dont think its a gay. :)
my vball training is on monday, wednesday and friday. yes 3 times a week. from 6 to 8.30. yes amazingly late, no, dont ask me how i cope with my work, and no i'm not coping with my work, but i AM trying. :D
to be honest, i've taken so little pictures, i'm starting to think i may have bought the wrong phone! lol just kidding.
okay now the summary of my life, my life now is moving at an amazingly fast pace i am starting to see stars but the good thing is its not up and down, its extremely stable which = extremely boring, and yes, i AM complaining, not that i dont like it, just that boring = hmm not fun. lol.
my spiritual walk. okay lets be honest, its lukewarm now, very very sadly, GOD PLEASE HELP ME! lol pray for me all you blog hoppers if you see this and u happen to have the habit of hm... praying. :D thank you!
honestly, what i want and need now, ALL i want and need now, is God's assurance that he's right here beside me, not that i dunno he's right here beside me, he's obviously right here beside me. but i want that FEELING, that rush, to KNOW indeed that he IS here, not know, know is the wrong word to use, i already know he is here, to FEEL he is here.
how is it possible that people love God the way they did when they FIRST became a christian, i really wanna do that, i wanna live my life as if i just got converted the day before, i wanna think, feel, talk, move, behave, LOVE the way i did when i FIRST became a christian.
even if i fail all my exams, even if my whole life crumbles, even if i fall seriously ill, even if the whole world turns against me. i know that God is by my side and always will be. the joy of the lord is my strength.
Quote from Oswald Chambers "my utmost for his highest" - it is an absolute crime to be weak in the Lord.
praise God!
check this out. american idols singing the song " shout to the lord " amazing.
