Today was quite an interesting day.hmmmm... woke up, went to church. today's sermon was about appreciating the life contrast and stuff like that. like the difference in our life when we became a christian, the difference between our life before and after that kinda stuff. it was like one of the most hard hitting sermons i've ever heart pastor richard give before, hahah! yam and i were like looking at each other then yam was like, "he's picking up darts and throwing at people!" then i'm like "NO! He's shooting people with a shotgun!" lol it was really really interesting. And you know what? i was affected by it! i mean like, ppl always talk about how we're unworthy and stuff and dun deserve God's grace and stuff but there was a part pastor richard said that struck me.
"people talk about God's amazing grace, very amazing meh? its free isnt it?"
so true eh? I mean, how many of us TRULY feel remorseful and awestruck by this amazing, glorious grace he's give us. I dont, thats for sure, im still immature, i say i wanna grow closer to God but very often the next moment im insensitive or sth. Well, i was really struck today by the message. And i went up for altar call, MY WHOLE BODY WAS SHAKING! omg man. my legs were totally falling apart, then pastor eric who was praying for me tightened his grip on my shoulders cos i think he felt me shaking! lol! cool man. God really rocks. really really rocks.
then we went for lunch, boring activity yes, super crowded and stuff. Then we went to amos house for party, lol we played winning eleven, lol not me at least, the others, then we went to amos room the com and watch soccer bloopers, a baby doing evil eye, some japanese rubbish show(laugh until stomach pain) and family guy. lol ridiculous stuff!
then we went home from there. actually not really home. yam lejon and i went to eat dinner at the queenstown mrt that coffee shop, btw amos house is a boon keng, so we went from church(queenstown) to boon keng, then from boon keng, to queenstown! LOL! not that i am against it, since i stay at queenstown anyway! hahahahah. so we had dinner. at 5.30! LOL then lejon had to go off. Then yam felt hungry and wanted to eat again, so i had nth to do anyway, so i just sit there and watch him eat, then we started talking about all the emo stuff LOL, so from 6 pm to 8pm, 2 lonely sad pathetic guys, sit dreamily staring into the beautiful starry night sky, talking about my eventful and exhilarating lives! What a way to end a beautiful sunday! So after that he went home(cck) and i went home.GUESS WHERE! hahahahaha. okay so thats the end of another beautiful day in the life of beau... oh i mean in the life of CALEB!! LOL! thank you to all my faithful readers who keep track of my life each day! hahahahahahah!
Its really fun talking to Dumb retarded-ED fuchsia sotongs! LOL!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
oh okay this is an update.
okay this is an update and clarification of what is going on in my academic life.
people have asked me what my o level score is because i said i am in acjc. okay this is the deal. we sec 4 peeps take prelims, and our prelims scores are used to apply for the first month of jc. SO using my prelims score. i applied in ACJC. but thats only the first month. O level results come out end of january, then we have to apply again, either to the same school, to another jc, or to a poly. okay? :)
people have asked me what my o level score is because i said i am in acjc. okay this is the deal. we sec 4 peeps take prelims, and our prelims scores are used to apply for the first month of jc. SO using my prelims score. i applied in ACJC. but thats only the first month. O level results come out end of january, then we have to apply again, either to the same school, to another jc, or to a poly. okay? :)
hello dumb retarded sotong!
hmm to be honest, today was quite boring, in the morning i went to eat lunch with my dad, after that i went for drama workshop in church 1-4pm. it was cool man. it was conducted by the 3 covenant players( its a drama group) from austrailia, they acted on tuesday during the christmas service. yeah so it was quite interesting. michelle clement timothy oh,foo bert nat amos(small) dina were all there, they taught us the 7 main basics of drama and stuff, quite fun la. But i was sneezing non stop during the workshop till i was quite put off by the end of it. 3 hours long. lol power.
then we went for ywav thanksgiving service. the mike was just left at the stage and whoever who wanted to say something could just go up and talk, to thank God and stuff. and as usual,youths are shy and dun dare to go up and say stuff in case they embarrass themselves, so yam and i were comparing, see who's estimation was better. As in how many minutes later then the next person will go up! lol it was quite funny.
after that bert eric violet samkhoo and i went to eat dinner at vivo. lol we went mussel guys or wadever that is called. samkhoo is quite funny, i asked ONE QUESTION in the car, i asked, is watchnight a eng cong thingy or a combined thingy? THEN, for the rest of the night, sam keep on asking me which girl i like from chinese cong!! hahahaha so funny. no one sam, no one! lol.
i learnt a new way of laughing on msn. no longer hahahaha. now its jajajajaja, its the new hip thing! Guess where i learnt it from! A dumb retarded sotong taught me!
okay gonna sleep night!
then we went for ywav thanksgiving service. the mike was just left at the stage and whoever who wanted to say something could just go up and talk, to thank God and stuff. and as usual,youths are shy and dun dare to go up and say stuff in case they embarrass themselves, so yam and i were comparing, see who's estimation was better. As in how many minutes later then the next person will go up! lol it was quite funny.
after that bert eric violet samkhoo and i went to eat dinner at vivo. lol we went mussel guys or wadever that is called. samkhoo is quite funny, i asked ONE QUESTION in the car, i asked, is watchnight a eng cong thingy or a combined thingy? THEN, for the rest of the night, sam keep on asking me which girl i like from chinese cong!! hahahaha so funny. no one sam, no one! lol.
i learnt a new way of laughing on msn. no longer hahahaha. now its jajajajaja, its the new hip thing! Guess where i learnt it from! A dumb retarded sotong taught me!
okay gonna sleep night!
insight! 2
i was just doing my quiet time. and i was thinking about what God was saying about we being children to enter heaven, how jesus said of how the children will be welcomed into the kingdom of heaven. so its like okay familiar stuff. then i started to pray, and i use this thing called CPTS to help me organise my thoughts.
Confession
Praise
Thanksgiving
Supplication.
i'm sure yall noe what those mean. so i was praying and i was saying like dear God forgive me if i have done anything that has tarnished the image/reputation of christianity.At that very moment, it was as if God was really speaking to me. i just paused. and thought to myself. why am i saying such a thing? i started questioning myself, does that mean christians show non believers the IMAGE of christianity and what christianity is meant to be by being loving and respectful and all that in front of them, POSSIBLY even in front of our own brothers and sisters and family members and brothers and sisters in christ? does it mean all we're doing is putting up an image so that ppl will come to know the Lord? i was thinking, that shldnt be the case rite? then i started thinking about jesus and stuff, i hardly remember anywhere in the bible where jesus wanted to redeem himself and save the "image" of the messiah when everyone was cursing him about being blasphemous for saying he is the son of God. He NEVER retaliated. I remember reading somewhere, when people blame you, NEVER justify or retaliate, there will come a day when all truth is revealed. So i was thinking, if thats the case, what we christians shld be doing shldnt be to live for non believers to see, or for the ppl around us to see, SO many times we lose track of our focus and we are so conscious of ppl seeing this and that and saying stuff like " thats why i dont want to be a christian". we are so scared of non believers saying that, that we cuddle ourselves up in the outer coat called "the christian" when what we really shld be doing is tearing ourselves apart and showing them the core of our belief, our very spirit itself. We gotta be REAL, then God will do the rest. but of course i'm guilty of whatever i said anyway, so its gonna take effort to change! but i think its really cool that i this thought came to my mind, and all the examples just click. Now, this is what i call divine intervention babe! Thank you God!
Confession
Praise
Thanksgiving
Supplication.
i'm sure yall noe what those mean. so i was praying and i was saying like dear God forgive me if i have done anything that has tarnished the image/reputation of christianity.At that very moment, it was as if God was really speaking to me. i just paused. and thought to myself. why am i saying such a thing? i started questioning myself, does that mean christians show non believers the IMAGE of christianity and what christianity is meant to be by being loving and respectful and all that in front of them, POSSIBLY even in front of our own brothers and sisters and family members and brothers and sisters in christ? does it mean all we're doing is putting up an image so that ppl will come to know the Lord? i was thinking, that shldnt be the case rite? then i started thinking about jesus and stuff, i hardly remember anywhere in the bible where jesus wanted to redeem himself and save the "image" of the messiah when everyone was cursing him about being blasphemous for saying he is the son of God. He NEVER retaliated. I remember reading somewhere, when people blame you, NEVER justify or retaliate, there will come a day when all truth is revealed. So i was thinking, if thats the case, what we christians shld be doing shldnt be to live for non believers to see, or for the ppl around us to see, SO many times we lose track of our focus and we are so conscious of ppl seeing this and that and saying stuff like " thats why i dont want to be a christian". we are so scared of non believers saying that, that we cuddle ourselves up in the outer coat called "the christian" when what we really shld be doing is tearing ourselves apart and showing them the core of our belief, our very spirit itself. We gotta be REAL, then God will do the rest. but of course i'm guilty of whatever i said anyway, so its gonna take effort to change! but i think its really cool that i this thought came to my mind, and all the examples just click. Now, this is what i call divine intervention babe! Thank you God!
Friday, December 28, 2007
hm
today was a full and fulfilling and satisfying day! In the morning around 10, i went for lunch with jerome, lol lunch at 10 because he had something on later on, so we went to long john silvers and guess what? they were still on breakfast menu!!! hahahah so we ate stuff on the breakfast menu, FOR LUNCH! Lol! but the breakfast was the most filling fast food breakfast i've ever eaten, i used to not like ljs cos i thought it was ex and stuff, now its my fav fast food place! the food is awesome!!! yeah!!!
so ard 11 jerome left and poor me went home. sigh. then i was on msn and bertrand asks me to go his hse play bball cos he's bored, hahahahaha cool rite, so i say settled. then i sit back and think. i'm not in the mood to play sports. or the active active kinda sports. so i decide, lets do sth esle. so bertrand comes to queenstown when i was supposed to go bukit gombak, and we go to mount faber safra! to play pool! LOL! cool ah both ball games. lol! then we were on the bus and a mr yam calls and asks where we are cos we were supposed to play bball today, yam comes back from bintan and wants to play bball, but i tell him we're not playing cos everyone is busy! lol so he decides to come and join us in playing pool and 3 guys play pool together! lol!
so after that i had to leave around 4 liddat cos i had appointment with felix bryanyap darylwoo&tay and joel to eat dinner as a farewell since felix is migrating to canada in january. it was a moving and overwhelming meal we had, tears flowed dramatically, and hearts were melted and the words exchanged, words of thanksgiving and gratitude, of love and care to and from felix just overcame us with emotion. what a meal.......
lol! i'm so good at writing such stuff! obviously it was nothing emotional, when 6 guys hang out, all u get is rubbish, nothing emotional. so we went to watch I AM LEGEND. the movie is 1 out of 5. seriously. but because will smith is the actor, i add another 1 half out of 5. so the movie is 2half out of 5. AVOID AT ALL COSTS. unless u are a hardcore will smith fan like me. but there seriously is nothing to watch in this movie. the superb desolated new york city scene aside, the movie is rubbish.
so after that we went to eat dinner. our original plan was to eat at pasta mania, at west mall, after watching movie AT WEST MALL. but because dear felix and bryanyappohchin think plaza sing is a nicer place, we had our location changed. SO THEN, we went to pasta mania after the movie. LONG QUEUE. THEN, we went to cafe cartel, LONG QUEUE. THEN, we went to cathay, RUBBISH FOOD. THEN, we had to walk to park mall, where fish and co was. THEN, we HAD TO WAIT 20 MINS!! okay la the woman said 15, but it felt like 20. goodness. i hate TOWN!! i love westmall and tiong bahru. its so hip la. so we ate our dinner. and talked nonsense. actually we cldnt talk much cos the band was playing extremely loud and irritating music. okay fine, the guy had a great voice and the music was nice, but come on! we want to HEAR what our frens say when they're eating!!! gosh! the food was okay la,i'm damn noob la, lol first time eat fish and co hahahaha felix also first time hahaha hi 5!
so i went home after that. it was a great day man!
okay felix, wanna thank you for ur friendship these 2 years, i think it'd be really sad if i didnt get to know you in sec 3 seriously, i thank God u came to 3E, lol i seriously treasure this friendship and i think ur a great great great guy, not only are u omg-ly smart, ur equally amazingly humble, lol hardly can u find anybody around like you anymore! so i just wanna thank you for all the fun times we had in class suaning bryan and making fun of him, even up till today we did not stop! thats the spirit!LOL i hope u have alot of fun trashing ppl in canada, lol always remember us! those times we laughed at bryan, and joked all that nonsense in bio class! haha ALL THE BEST, MATE!
yesterday God assured me thru an incident that we must never be envious of anyone. Is there someone who beats you in studies, sports and everything possible? more popular than you, better looking than you, and every other thing possible? dont let it get to ur head, God creates us in such a unique way that no one can EVER compare to us. of course the above example is made up, but God's assurance of us being uniquely and wonderfully made, is not. Trust him! He never forsakes! Everytime you start to feel envious of anybody, look to the sky and tell urself. God is great. For if you really think he's great, you will NEVER doubt his creation.
God is great.
so ard 11 jerome left and poor me went home. sigh. then i was on msn and bertrand asks me to go his hse play bball cos he's bored, hahahahaha cool rite, so i say settled. then i sit back and think. i'm not in the mood to play sports. or the active active kinda sports. so i decide, lets do sth esle. so bertrand comes to queenstown when i was supposed to go bukit gombak, and we go to mount faber safra! to play pool! LOL! cool ah both ball games. lol! then we were on the bus and a mr yam calls and asks where we are cos we were supposed to play bball today, yam comes back from bintan and wants to play bball, but i tell him we're not playing cos everyone is busy! lol so he decides to come and join us in playing pool and 3 guys play pool together! lol!
so after that i had to leave around 4 liddat cos i had appointment with felix bryanyap darylwoo&tay and joel to eat dinner as a farewell since felix is migrating to canada in january. it was a moving and overwhelming meal we had, tears flowed dramatically, and hearts were melted and the words exchanged, words of thanksgiving and gratitude, of love and care to and from felix just overcame us with emotion. what a meal.......
lol! i'm so good at writing such stuff! obviously it was nothing emotional, when 6 guys hang out, all u get is rubbish, nothing emotional. so we went to watch I AM LEGEND. the movie is 1 out of 5. seriously. but because will smith is the actor, i add another 1 half out of 5. so the movie is 2half out of 5. AVOID AT ALL COSTS. unless u are a hardcore will smith fan like me. but there seriously is nothing to watch in this movie. the superb desolated new york city scene aside, the movie is rubbish.
so after that we went to eat dinner. our original plan was to eat at pasta mania, at west mall, after watching movie AT WEST MALL. but because dear felix and bryanyappohchin think plaza sing is a nicer place, we had our location changed. SO THEN, we went to pasta mania after the movie. LONG QUEUE. THEN, we went to cafe cartel, LONG QUEUE. THEN, we went to cathay, RUBBISH FOOD. THEN, we had to walk to park mall, where fish and co was. THEN, we HAD TO WAIT 20 MINS!! okay la the woman said 15, but it felt like 20. goodness. i hate TOWN!! i love westmall and tiong bahru. its so hip la. so we ate our dinner. and talked nonsense. actually we cldnt talk much cos the band was playing extremely loud and irritating music. okay fine, the guy had a great voice and the music was nice, but come on! we want to HEAR what our frens say when they're eating!!! gosh! the food was okay la,i'm damn noob la, lol first time eat fish and co hahahaha felix also first time hahaha hi 5!
so i went home after that. it was a great day man!
okay felix, wanna thank you for ur friendship these 2 years, i think it'd be really sad if i didnt get to know you in sec 3 seriously, i thank God u came to 3E, lol i seriously treasure this friendship and i think ur a great great great guy, not only are u omg-ly smart, ur equally amazingly humble, lol hardly can u find anybody around like you anymore! so i just wanna thank you for all the fun times we had in class suaning bryan and making fun of him, even up till today we did not stop! thats the spirit!LOL i hope u have alot of fun trashing ppl in canada, lol always remember us! those times we laughed at bryan, and joked all that nonsense in bio class! haha ALL THE BEST, MATE!
yesterday God assured me thru an incident that we must never be envious of anyone. Is there someone who beats you in studies, sports and everything possible? more popular than you, better looking than you, and every other thing possible? dont let it get to ur head, God creates us in such a unique way that no one can EVER compare to us. of course the above example is made up, but God's assurance of us being uniquely and wonderfully made, is not. Trust him! He never forsakes! Everytime you start to feel envious of anybody, look to the sky and tell urself. God is great. For if you really think he's great, you will NEVER doubt his creation.
God is great.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
untitled.
today was cool.. i did nothing much really, stayed at home the whole day, except walk back and forth between the mrt station and my house cos my sister asked me to pass her something then said the mrt train was jammed then asked me to go home and wait first then while i was walking home she asked me to go to the mrt station again. those who noe how impatient i am can roughly figure out how i felt.
"caleb can u help me bring my scarf and the bus guide to the mrt station? thanks, leave the house when i call you."
ring ring.
caleb walks out of the house towards the mrt station, handphone beeps. message reads " the train is jammed, go back home and wait until i tell u again"
caleb walking back home.already impatient because he was watching tv. handphone beeps. message reads " okay you can come now" ARGHH!!! its like this dog walking back and forth, back and forth. but guess wad! i didnt lose my temper! i was thinking. God's training is really tough, really really tough, gotta endure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i woke up really late, used the computer, blah blah, i dun even know why i'm blogging seriously. what a waste of time to blog when you dun go out and theres nothing to blog about! sigh. just now in the afternoon i was talking to jenisse, and i was very fierce to her, lol she said she never see me like that before. hahahahahah cool man. sorry jen! lol i was just joking. lol
okay. so wads next to blog about. yay man u is top of the table, lol finally. ronaldo is just ownage. sigh, that got me thinking about next year, can i make it into the soccer cca in ACJC? i know everyone keeps saying acjc's soccer is damn average and stuff like that, and i have confidence that i will make it in, i mean seriously, dun wanna be proud, but i shld make it in rite? then why am i thinking i wldnt be able to make it in now? lol. i was talking to charisse, if i dun make it in, then join library lor. lol God guides my path, i'll walk where he wants me to walk. i dont even have soccer boots, amar borrowed mine and never returned. sian. anyway i was planning to buy new ones already. if i did get into jc. and now i'm in, but i dunno if i'll stay. Lol life is funny.
that brings me to my quiet time today. For those ppl who do daily bread and our journey, is that wad its called? yeah i think so. i dont do both, serene gave me this thick green book, also daily devotions and i decided to use it, and its really SUPER good stuff. she gave me when i was baptised, april 8th. lol easter! This book is really chime and stuff. gotta think alot. but my devotion today, 27th december, is the most complicated and chime devotion i have EVER read.
it talks about the conscious sin and the unconscious sin, oh my. lol i had no idea wad it was talking about. but the last part said this. (below)
Every once in a while, God brings us to a major turning point - a great crossroads in our life. From that point on we either go toward a more and more slow, lazy, and useless christian life, or we become more on fire, giving our utmost for his highest - our best for his glory.
I believe 7 out of every 10 christians will be in the same boat as me, the former. why is that the case? its sad aint it? lol what i'm doing now is called oxymoronic, lol i dun think there is such a word though.
help us father.
"caleb can u help me bring my scarf and the bus guide to the mrt station? thanks, leave the house when i call you."
ring ring.
caleb walks out of the house towards the mrt station, handphone beeps. message reads " the train is jammed, go back home and wait until i tell u again"
caleb walking back home.already impatient because he was watching tv. handphone beeps. message reads " okay you can come now" ARGHH!!! its like this dog walking back and forth, back and forth. but guess wad! i didnt lose my temper! i was thinking. God's training is really tough, really really tough, gotta endure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i woke up really late, used the computer, blah blah, i dun even know why i'm blogging seriously. what a waste of time to blog when you dun go out and theres nothing to blog about! sigh. just now in the afternoon i was talking to jenisse, and i was very fierce to her, lol she said she never see me like that before. hahahahahah cool man. sorry jen! lol i was just joking. lol
okay. so wads next to blog about. yay man u is top of the table, lol finally. ronaldo is just ownage. sigh, that got me thinking about next year, can i make it into the soccer cca in ACJC? i know everyone keeps saying acjc's soccer is damn average and stuff like that, and i have confidence that i will make it in, i mean seriously, dun wanna be proud, but i shld make it in rite? then why am i thinking i wldnt be able to make it in now? lol. i was talking to charisse, if i dun make it in, then join library lor. lol God guides my path, i'll walk where he wants me to walk. i dont even have soccer boots, amar borrowed mine and never returned. sian. anyway i was planning to buy new ones already. if i did get into jc. and now i'm in, but i dunno if i'll stay. Lol life is funny.
that brings me to my quiet time today. For those ppl who do daily bread and our journey, is that wad its called? yeah i think so. i dont do both, serene gave me this thick green book, also daily devotions and i decided to use it, and its really SUPER good stuff. she gave me when i was baptised, april 8th. lol easter! This book is really chime and stuff. gotta think alot. but my devotion today, 27th december, is the most complicated and chime devotion i have EVER read.
it talks about the conscious sin and the unconscious sin, oh my. lol i had no idea wad it was talking about. but the last part said this. (below)
Every once in a while, God brings us to a major turning point - a great crossroads in our life. From that point on we either go toward a more and more slow, lazy, and useless christian life, or we become more on fire, giving our utmost for his highest - our best for his glory.
I believe 7 out of every 10 christians will be in the same boat as me, the former. why is that the case? its sad aint it? lol what i'm doing now is called oxymoronic, lol i dun think there is such a word though.
help us father.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
lol
i heard the most ridiculous things i have ever heard in my life all in one day. lol ALL in one day. amazing.
today i realised something. all along i know that God does things for a reason, and everytime something happens, we as humans can list possible reasons, or at least we try to, like for example when someone fails an exam, we can say something like, its to teach him to lean on God or to trust God to provide in trying circumstances. But today i finally realised what it REALLY means when God says his thoughts are higher than ours. it really is. lol.
how is it possible that i like someone in the past and not realise it? ridiculous! and the person still can remember, how is that possible? lol. i got a sign from God today, dun say things i dun mean, it'll come back to haunt me. seriously. im so seriously gonna watch what i say from now on, help me God!
today is the most boring day ive had this holidays, and there are about 10 more of such days already so one can roughly tell how bored i've been. today i stayed at home to do nothing. i cooked my own lunch cos no one was home, swept and vacuumed the places i felt were dirty and.. did nothing basically. i wanted to go and swim and hone my non-existent swimming skills, flapping skills more like it, but i had no motivation. im so gonna die if i go acjc, i heard swimming is thought during pe lessons, i bet i'll be the only person to raise my hand if they ask who cannot swim. useless man..
okay whatever, when that time comes then talk, im gonna hardcore mug, nobody will laugh at a person who does super well in studies but cant swim rite?? lol just kidding, i'm gonna die man.
my original plan for the week was this.
wednesday: Go gym with lejon and zach then go bert hse play bball.
thursday: Go watch movie with jerome and play pool
friday:Go have felix's farewell lunch cos he's migrating.
this is whats going on now.
wednesday: stay at home the whole day do nothing
thursday: stay at home the whole day do nothing
friday:Go have felix's farewell lunch cos he's migrating.
wow! at least one day's activities don't change. this is what i call a boring holiday. and next wednesday school starting already. heard from zijian(school one) that there is morning worship in 7am. LOL shiok man.I sure need God's help man, to not make a fool of myself on the first day of school. im thinking what acjc would really be like. would i make frens like jerome? or even joel when i first came to secondary school. would i have frens that close to me that i wld call them a spiritual brother? lol i sure hope everything turns out well. But no worries man. God's in charge! lol.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
today i realised something. all along i know that God does things for a reason, and everytime something happens, we as humans can list possible reasons, or at least we try to, like for example when someone fails an exam, we can say something like, its to teach him to lean on God or to trust God to provide in trying circumstances. But today i finally realised what it REALLY means when God says his thoughts are higher than ours. it really is. lol.
how is it possible that i like someone in the past and not realise it? ridiculous! and the person still can remember, how is that possible? lol. i got a sign from God today, dun say things i dun mean, it'll come back to haunt me. seriously. im so seriously gonna watch what i say from now on, help me God!
today is the most boring day ive had this holidays, and there are about 10 more of such days already so one can roughly tell how bored i've been. today i stayed at home to do nothing. i cooked my own lunch cos no one was home, swept and vacuumed the places i felt were dirty and.. did nothing basically. i wanted to go and swim and hone my non-existent swimming skills, flapping skills more like it, but i had no motivation. im so gonna die if i go acjc, i heard swimming is thought during pe lessons, i bet i'll be the only person to raise my hand if they ask who cannot swim. useless man..
okay whatever, when that time comes then talk, im gonna hardcore mug, nobody will laugh at a person who does super well in studies but cant swim rite?? lol just kidding, i'm gonna die man.
my original plan for the week was this.
wednesday: Go gym with lejon and zach then go bert hse play bball.
thursday: Go watch movie with jerome and play pool
friday:Go have felix's farewell lunch cos he's migrating.
this is whats going on now.
wednesday: stay at home the whole day do nothing
thursday: stay at home the whole day do nothing
friday:Go have felix's farewell lunch cos he's migrating.
wow! at least one day's activities don't change. this is what i call a boring holiday. and next wednesday school starting already. heard from zijian(school one) that there is morning worship in 7am. LOL shiok man.I sure need God's help man, to not make a fool of myself on the first day of school. im thinking what acjc would really be like. would i make frens like jerome? or even joel when i first came to secondary school. would i have frens that close to me that i wld call them a spiritual brother? lol i sure hope everything turns out well. But no worries man. God's in charge! lol.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
merry christmas ho ho ho.
when a person commits a sin that drags his mood down after he comes to the realisation that he shldnt have done such a thing. how would he react? would he just get over it without a hint of guilt? or would his mood be utterly affected?
guilt is a negative feeling, God tells us to overcome guilt and lean on jesus' forgiveness. But realistically, how well can a human overcome guilt? Are you afraid of the tarnishing of ur reputation? or God's wrath? Or do u even bother? what am i afraid of?
i have never desired to fear. now i do.
I have always wondered how the leaders, pastors and stuff or maybe even ywav youth leaders or stuff like that, how they manage to seem like they have no problems, i read of my recent quiet time of how we often live for others to see, and how we mustnt have a hidden life, but when ur moody, u show it rite? then why do the leaders seem to be never sad?
the ability to brush aside disappointments is related to how close a person is to God. But when u tread the thin line between having a heck care attitude, and overcoming stumbles on ur journey to becoming a God fearing man/lady, how do you noe where u stand?
today is christmas day. merry christmas everyone! we talk about how we shldnt treat christmas in such a slipshod manner, that its not about presents and stuff, we sing the song that christmas is about his glory, more than just another story. But how many people actually think about how the novalty of christmas has been lost over the years? im the first to raise my hand to say im guilty of overlooking this dreadful trend. So this christmas, i pray that i will be truly immersed in the true meaning of christmas, of the birth of christ, that changed the world forever. If national day and other major events are so seriously regarded, then shldnt christmas top them all?
jesus is the shepherd, we are the sheep. Glory to God in the highest.
Its an irony that the person i was thinking about came to talk to me about it. thank you God.
i really dont understand adults.i really dont. What in the world is on his mind? seriously.ridiculous.
guilt is a negative feeling, God tells us to overcome guilt and lean on jesus' forgiveness. But realistically, how well can a human overcome guilt? Are you afraid of the tarnishing of ur reputation? or God's wrath? Or do u even bother? what am i afraid of?
i have never desired to fear. now i do.
I have always wondered how the leaders, pastors and stuff or maybe even ywav youth leaders or stuff like that, how they manage to seem like they have no problems, i read of my recent quiet time of how we often live for others to see, and how we mustnt have a hidden life, but when ur moody, u show it rite? then why do the leaders seem to be never sad?
the ability to brush aside disappointments is related to how close a person is to God. But when u tread the thin line between having a heck care attitude, and overcoming stumbles on ur journey to becoming a God fearing man/lady, how do you noe where u stand?
today is christmas day. merry christmas everyone! we talk about how we shldnt treat christmas in such a slipshod manner, that its not about presents and stuff, we sing the song that christmas is about his glory, more than just another story. But how many people actually think about how the novalty of christmas has been lost over the years? im the first to raise my hand to say im guilty of overlooking this dreadful trend. So this christmas, i pray that i will be truly immersed in the true meaning of christmas, of the birth of christ, that changed the world forever. If national day and other major events are so seriously regarded, then shldnt christmas top them all?
jesus is the shepherd, we are the sheep. Glory to God in the highest.
Its an irony that the person i was thinking about came to talk to me about it. thank you God.
i really dont understand adults.i really dont. What in the world is on his mind? seriously.ridiculous.
Monday, December 24, 2007
christmas eve!
today i went to watch movie and shop with bertrand william charisse and jenisse, we impromtu decided to go after we were all talking about having nothing to do in church yesterday! so yes. we went to jurong point, dun ask me why there and not town, i just dun like town! yes so we watched national treasure the book of secrets, it was okay la, not as good as the previous
national treasure movie, but it was okay la, with the same twists and stuff, just that the previous one was alot alot alot more believable and stuff. like this movie, everything just seems to fit perfectly, doesnt seem logical! 3 out of 5 stars!
okay after we went to buy christmas presents, william needed to buy for daryl, i needed to buy for my bro and other friends. blah blah. oh did i mention we were billy bombers to eat? omg. the food was just SOOOOOOO CHEAP!!!!!!!!!! smart ppl understand what im talking about. i think they painted the steak with pure gold before serving it, im pretty sure the water had diamond extracts in it.LOL. it tasted alrite, the steak really wasnt too horrible, lol! it was nice la. but jack's place is better! hmm but more expensive too. okay wadever. after that bert and william went to town, i didnt wanna follow, cos i hate town, so i just walked around with C&J for awhile, bought some stuff for JAM and other church peeps then left for home. im half dead, but i dun wanna sleep, though i feel like sleeping, but since i dun wanna, i wunt, even tho i feel like.
in 1 and a half hours time, i will leave my house to go the my parents' cell group gathering, its like a christmas party when they plan really really really,hmm what word shld i use.... BORING! games and stuff and celebrate christmas, i dun really feel like going, dun really wanna go, but i feel like i'm going out too often and not spending enough time with my parents. so i'll do just that today.
cant believe its christmas eve.
december never felt this bad.
i dunno why i have this feeling. is it jealousy? sure seems like it. at least i've told no one about it,so it wont breed. although i almost told jenisse.i do hope this feeling fades.help me God.let it go let it go.humility is the key.
Lord, its hard to love my neighbours.
national treasure movie, but it was okay la, with the same twists and stuff, just that the previous one was alot alot alot more believable and stuff. like this movie, everything just seems to fit perfectly, doesnt seem logical! 3 out of 5 stars!
okay after we went to buy christmas presents, william needed to buy for daryl, i needed to buy for my bro and other friends. blah blah. oh did i mention we were billy bombers to eat? omg. the food was just SOOOOOOO CHEAP!!!!!!!!!! smart ppl understand what im talking about. i think they painted the steak with pure gold before serving it, im pretty sure the water had diamond extracts in it.LOL. it tasted alrite, the steak really wasnt too horrible, lol! it was nice la. but jack's place is better! hmm but more expensive too. okay wadever. after that bert and william went to town, i didnt wanna follow, cos i hate town, so i just walked around with C&J for awhile, bought some stuff for JAM and other church peeps then left for home. im half dead, but i dun wanna sleep, though i feel like sleeping, but since i dun wanna, i wunt, even tho i feel like.
in 1 and a half hours time, i will leave my house to go the my parents' cell group gathering, its like a christmas party when they plan really really really,hmm what word shld i use.... BORING! games and stuff and celebrate christmas, i dun really feel like going, dun really wanna go, but i feel like i'm going out too often and not spending enough time with my parents. so i'll do just that today.
cant believe its christmas eve.
december never felt this bad.
i dunno why i have this feeling. is it jealousy? sure seems like it. at least i've told no one about it,so it wont breed. although i almost told jenisse.i do hope this feeling fades.help me God.let it go let it go.humility is the key.
Lord, its hard to love my neighbours.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
sunday.
okay i just reached home so im gonna blog before i forget the things i wanted to say. okay so today i went to church, 10am service, cool, i set my alarm to 8am, i woke up at 8am, slept again, woke up at 8.40, slept again, woke up at 9.07, and flew out of my house cos i was supposed to meet bert and benel at 9.30 and i tot i was gonna be late!
i slept at 2am yesterday night, or morning or wadever so i shag like mad, u noe, like REALLY tired, lol.so during the sermon, or at least starting part, my head seriously felt really really really heavy, until pastor richard talked bout how humans like superheroes so much, about heroes saving the world and stuff, then my mouth just shot off, and i said "save the cheerleader" lol then william and bert laugh then from there on i was okay already, you noe, laughter cures all illnesses! or fatigue, or wadever.oh ya, during the sermon, pastor richard mentioned something about God's abilities, you noe how JESUS IS GOD, and God came down AS a man to save us that kinda thing, chime chime, pastor richard mentioned that alot of ppl cannot fathom how God can be incarnated as human, in flesh, that its not possible, then he said this line that i felt really cool to take down.
Saying God cant do something, is limiting what he can do.
okay after service, lejon gave me a box of little little little muffins that were really cute, as christmas present, thanks lejon for giving me, thanks jonel for making it. LOL. after that we went to eat lunch and then zijian(church one, not school one), lejon and i went to play pool, so we play knock out, lol really fun, somehow, it ended up with all 3 of us playing 3 games with the other 2 people so ALL of us played 6 games, my gosh, so perfect, so well planned! LOL! it was fun, and funny, and fun. nice guys LJ and ZJ, LOL! thats cool man.
after that we left to home, on the way home, i met tianhang with his all brown hair,lol ALL BROWN, thats hip man, tho i will never dye my hair, personally. its one of my WU DA ZUN YAN. translated, its 5 big promises. to God i guess.
1. Never dye hair
2. Never have piercing, ears or wadever
3. Never drink BEER(wine still can, for business stuff, but if i have a choice, i would abstain totally)
4. Never have a tattoo
5. Never go clubing.
stuff like pre marital sex and all that nonsense is understood so dun need to say. and people like tim ho who try to be funny by asking me, "so you'll take drugs ah?", the reply is, YES, cos all the medicine we take is drugs ANYWAY! LOL.
okay wadever, lame. anyway all these decisions that i have made, are solely personal, influenced by my belief, but its more of a decision than an obligation. ppl tell me that jesus drank wine, jesus went partying, (remember he hung out with the sinners and tax collectors and stuff in parties?) yeah man, jesus did all that, but IM NOT JESUS, and all this arguments are just attempts to make this stuff that are not of God, justify-able, lol no such word! so you see, these are personal decisions! so dun ask me why not. COS i say so! =)))))
oh ya, tianhang say i change alot, he say im nicer now! hahahahahahhahaha that made my day, nobody says im nice, everywhere i go, ppl say good riddance, shut up, get lost, or they laugh at me! so its nice when someone says im nice! thank you!
merry christmas babes! not yet la, soon tho.
i slept at 2am yesterday night, or morning or wadever so i shag like mad, u noe, like REALLY tired, lol.so during the sermon, or at least starting part, my head seriously felt really really really heavy, until pastor richard talked bout how humans like superheroes so much, about heroes saving the world and stuff, then my mouth just shot off, and i said "save the cheerleader" lol then william and bert laugh then from there on i was okay already, you noe, laughter cures all illnesses! or fatigue, or wadever.oh ya, during the sermon, pastor richard mentioned something about God's abilities, you noe how JESUS IS GOD, and God came down AS a man to save us that kinda thing, chime chime, pastor richard mentioned that alot of ppl cannot fathom how God can be incarnated as human, in flesh, that its not possible, then he said this line that i felt really cool to take down.
Saying God cant do something, is limiting what he can do.
okay after service, lejon gave me a box of little little little muffins that were really cute, as christmas present, thanks lejon for giving me, thanks jonel for making it. LOL. after that we went to eat lunch and then zijian(church one, not school one), lejon and i went to play pool, so we play knock out, lol really fun, somehow, it ended up with all 3 of us playing 3 games with the other 2 people so ALL of us played 6 games, my gosh, so perfect, so well planned! LOL! it was fun, and funny, and fun. nice guys LJ and ZJ, LOL! thats cool man.
after that we left to home, on the way home, i met tianhang with his all brown hair,lol ALL BROWN, thats hip man, tho i will never dye my hair, personally. its one of my WU DA ZUN YAN. translated, its 5 big promises. to God i guess.
1. Never dye hair
2. Never have piercing, ears or wadever
3. Never drink BEER(wine still can, for business stuff, but if i have a choice, i would abstain totally)
4. Never have a tattoo
5. Never go clubing.
stuff like pre marital sex and all that nonsense is understood so dun need to say. and people like tim ho who try to be funny by asking me, "so you'll take drugs ah?", the reply is, YES, cos all the medicine we take is drugs ANYWAY! LOL.
okay wadever, lame. anyway all these decisions that i have made, are solely personal, influenced by my belief, but its more of a decision than an obligation. ppl tell me that jesus drank wine, jesus went partying, (remember he hung out with the sinners and tax collectors and stuff in parties?) yeah man, jesus did all that, but IM NOT JESUS, and all this arguments are just attempts to make this stuff that are not of God, justify-able, lol no such word! so you see, these are personal decisions! so dun ask me why not. COS i say so! =)))))
oh ya, tianhang say i change alot, he say im nicer now! hahahahahahhahaha that made my day, nobody says im nice, everywhere i go, ppl say good riddance, shut up, get lost, or they laugh at me! so its nice when someone says im nice! thank you!
merry christmas babes! not yet la, soon tho.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
today was today!
today i woke up at 11.30, lol amazing ah, cos i slept at 2 last night, talking on the phone! lol yes i know ur reading this, hello! okay so i went to church for street ee, it was cool man, i am trained in street ee but the last time i did it was eons ago lol so obviously im not very confident, then i was revising my notes before waiting for pastor ghim har to give the briefing then she walk past me and ask, " when was the last time u did this", LOL not very long ago, only about 2 years ago. LOL!
okay to the point, we went to the streets, my group was auntie oilin, another lady, forgot her name, tim ho and i, so tim ho and i split from the other two to try and talk to ppl ourselves, we managed to share 2 full gospels, but as tim said, i was talking retardedly fast, LOL doesnt matter, we sow the seeds let God do the rest. one weird thing about this experience was that as we were sharing with people, we encountered at least 3 or 4 people who said they were christians but when we asked them the two diagnostic questions, they were stumped.
1. IF u were to die today, unfortunately, are u certain u will have eternal life, or be able to enter heaven?
2. IF u were to go to heaven's gates today and God asks you why should i let you into my heaven, what would you say?
but its normal for christians to be unsure of their faith since there are so many 2nd generation christians nowadays, meaning they are christians, or they THINK they are christians cos they go to church every week from young because of their parents. BUT, BUT this was the best part, we encountered a guy, who said he was sure he would go heaven, SURE, then he didnt know why God should let him in. COOL GUY! LOL, sec 1 acs barker guy. pray for him dudes!
overall it was meaningful and fulfilling, after that we went to eat dinner and proceed to church for the chinese concert at 7pm, "we" as in tim ho, nat foong, amos ng and me! the concert was really good, like seriously seriously imba-ly good, it was actually a musical! lol so they act then sing then act then sing, cool stuff man, like some chinese version of hairspray, laalalallalla......!
the pastor was hilarious, turns out he is actually the husband of xiu ling, a popular ch 8 newscaster, im sure everyone noes her face, but not her name LOL, but we were all shocked and surprised when we saw her picture with him on the powerpoint, lol quite cool. overall it was a meaningfully, is there such a word? fruitfully, well spent day. at least i wasnt doing nonsense like play fifa for 10 hours. lol
the pastor said something very very meaningful.
the moment you were born, you were heading for death.
lets make our lives meaningful people. real meaningful. Christ is the way!
okay to the point, we went to the streets, my group was auntie oilin, another lady, forgot her name, tim ho and i, so tim ho and i split from the other two to try and talk to ppl ourselves, we managed to share 2 full gospels, but as tim said, i was talking retardedly fast, LOL doesnt matter, we sow the seeds let God do the rest. one weird thing about this experience was that as we were sharing with people, we encountered at least 3 or 4 people who said they were christians but when we asked them the two diagnostic questions, they were stumped.
1. IF u were to die today, unfortunately, are u certain u will have eternal life, or be able to enter heaven?
2. IF u were to go to heaven's gates today and God asks you why should i let you into my heaven, what would you say?
but its normal for christians to be unsure of their faith since there are so many 2nd generation christians nowadays, meaning they are christians, or they THINK they are christians cos they go to church every week from young because of their parents. BUT, BUT this was the best part, we encountered a guy, who said he was sure he would go heaven, SURE, then he didnt know why God should let him in. COOL GUY! LOL, sec 1 acs barker guy. pray for him dudes!
overall it was meaningful and fulfilling, after that we went to eat dinner and proceed to church for the chinese concert at 7pm, "we" as in tim ho, nat foong, amos ng and me! the concert was really good, like seriously seriously imba-ly good, it was actually a musical! lol so they act then sing then act then sing, cool stuff man, like some chinese version of hairspray, laalalallalla......!
the pastor was hilarious, turns out he is actually the husband of xiu ling, a popular ch 8 newscaster, im sure everyone noes her face, but not her name LOL, but we were all shocked and surprised when we saw her picture with him on the powerpoint, lol quite cool. overall it was a meaningfully, is there such a word? fruitfully, well spent day. at least i wasnt doing nonsense like play fifa for 10 hours. lol
the pastor said something very very meaningful.
the moment you were born, you were heading for death.
lets make our lives meaningful people. real meaningful. Christ is the way!
Friday, December 21, 2007
YWAV D&D
today was ywav dinner and dance lol the theme was retro.
so in the morning i woke up, supposed to go lian my extremely lousy swimming but i was too lazy, so stay at home and play com. was supposed to go meet bert daryl and nat at queenstown mrt at 4pm to go ywca, but i was so bored so i got daryl to come my hse, and we played fifa 07! (OMG IMBA NO LIFE!) so we just waited and waited then at 4pm went to meet the rest, so we made our way to dhoby ghaut mrt, thats how u spell it rite? okay back to the topic, jingfang told us that YWCA was behind park mall, so we figured, like any normal wall, you shld be able to walk RIGHT thru the building. lol we were so wrong. the mall is the most screwed up mall i've seen in my life, the ceiling has GOT to be 1.8m high because my head barely wasnt touching it. and guess how to WALK THRU the mall? you gotta walk in thru the front entrace, take escalator ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP! OMG! LOL! then u walk thru the carpark and u reach YWCA, u noe why? cos its at fort canning hill or wadever u call it so the mall is like, screwed man! lol
okay so we reached ywca, and we saw lotsa hot ppl like ruixiang dressed as mafia boss with finger licking flamingly burningly hot sexy hair and leather upper coat, LOL! he was hot baby!
then there was darryl, bert's bro, and william all hot mamas. lol after that we saw eric, samkhoo and yaoliang! OMG! hot mamas! lol! pastor eric was not too bad either with golden colour overall, glittery glittery, lol.
as a whole, to be honest it was quite boring, it wasnt like WOW exciting kind of exciting, it was average, and bertrand and i were just sitting there, talking about how boring it was lol!! we were complaining about everything! haha quite funny now that i think about it, sorry leaders! the food was seriously......great! lol you know wad im gonna say anyway so i shant say it. actually it was okay la, not that bad, just that our mood was bad, so we link everything to it! LOL. actually to be honest, its realli obvious the leaders put in alot alot of effort, so thank you leaders for the D&D! the last part was the fun-nest i guess, with everyone going crazy, but everyone is just to shy! there were ppl standing around, afraid to let their hair down and go crazy! Actually from the onset, it was bound to be like this, i mean come on, dancing? lol cant expect ppl to say YAY LETS DO IT! lol but it was fun la the last part. we also sung christmas carols, okay typical activity. i think one of the reasons why this event wasnt all that great, is probably because there were empty tables, so probably the feel just wasnt there, and i dun understand why the theme has got to be RETRO! lol its quite funny, but its really hard to dress retro, esp with all the expensive renting and all that.im pretty sure it wld have been alot more fun if all the tables were filled, but alot of ppl are overseas, so theres really nothing there can be done! oh well, but as a whole, THANK YOU LEADERS! It sure was a really great effort, to give ywavers a fun and enjoyable holiday! lol!
-cw
so in the morning i woke up, supposed to go lian my extremely lousy swimming but i was too lazy, so stay at home and play com. was supposed to go meet bert daryl and nat at queenstown mrt at 4pm to go ywca, but i was so bored so i got daryl to come my hse, and we played fifa 07! (OMG IMBA NO LIFE!) so we just waited and waited then at 4pm went to meet the rest, so we made our way to dhoby ghaut mrt, thats how u spell it rite? okay back to the topic, jingfang told us that YWCA was behind park mall, so we figured, like any normal wall, you shld be able to walk RIGHT thru the building. lol we were so wrong. the mall is the most screwed up mall i've seen in my life, the ceiling has GOT to be 1.8m high because my head barely wasnt touching it. and guess how to WALK THRU the mall? you gotta walk in thru the front entrace, take escalator ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP! OMG! LOL! then u walk thru the carpark and u reach YWCA, u noe why? cos its at fort canning hill or wadever u call it so the mall is like, screwed man! lol
okay so we reached ywca, and we saw lotsa hot ppl like ruixiang dressed as mafia boss with finger licking flamingly burningly hot sexy hair and leather upper coat, LOL! he was hot baby!
then there was darryl, bert's bro, and william all hot mamas. lol after that we saw eric, samkhoo and yaoliang! OMG! hot mamas! lol! pastor eric was not too bad either with golden colour overall, glittery glittery, lol.
as a whole, to be honest it was quite boring, it wasnt like WOW exciting kind of exciting, it was average, and bertrand and i were just sitting there, talking about how boring it was lol!! we were complaining about everything! haha quite funny now that i think about it, sorry leaders! the food was seriously......great! lol you know wad im gonna say anyway so i shant say it. actually it was okay la, not that bad, just that our mood was bad, so we link everything to it! LOL. actually to be honest, its realli obvious the leaders put in alot alot of effort, so thank you leaders for the D&D! the last part was the fun-nest i guess, with everyone going crazy, but everyone is just to shy! there were ppl standing around, afraid to let their hair down and go crazy! Actually from the onset, it was bound to be like this, i mean come on, dancing? lol cant expect ppl to say YAY LETS DO IT! lol but it was fun la the last part. we also sung christmas carols, okay typical activity. i think one of the reasons why this event wasnt all that great, is probably because there were empty tables, so probably the feel just wasnt there, and i dun understand why the theme has got to be RETRO! lol its quite funny, but its really hard to dress retro, esp with all the expensive renting and all that.im pretty sure it wld have been alot more fun if all the tables were filled, but alot of ppl are overseas, so theres really nothing there can be done! oh well, but as a whole, THANK YOU LEADERS! It sure was a really great effort, to give ywavers a fun and enjoyable holiday! lol!
-cw
insight!
yesterday night i did a quick quiet time, the book that i was reading was talking about how we should be real REAL christians, not being afraid to mince our words, for jesus came not to bring peace, but to bring the sword.
the passage was about how christ came not because of just pity and love, or NOT at all because of pity, he didnt come to symphatize with us, to say oh! u poor thing, let me flap ur cheeks! lol okay OOP. back to the topic, christ came to pierce all our hearts, the darkest secrets we have, how often we pray for God to bring us closer to him, yet at the bottom of our hearts, we're not willing to let go, not willing to let go of all the attention and popularity we are enjoying, not willing to let go of that crazed love for money, how often we say we will follow God, yet when asked to do something for him, example ministry and stuff, by our seniors and leaders, we say we are not good enough, too busy, dun feel like, no confidence! i am guilty of that too! hu isnt!
then the passage went on to talk about how we should be like jesus, as christians, we are representatives! AMBASSADORS! is that spelled correctly? hu cares. the way we talk, behave, think, should ENTIRELY reflect christ, not just one part, not just in church! not just when u are playing for the worship team that sunday! the passage says that we as christians must not mince our words, we must tell the truth, shed the light on those ppl who we KNOW are doing wrong, whom we noe are not on the right track, but lets face it, how often ppl have told us, ur not doing this right, i dun think this is the proper thing to do, we fight back with a phrase like "bible said nothing about this! show me in the bible where it says no doing this! " COME ON! am i right!??? lol! guess wad! i've done that before!!! lol!! but still, us being guilty of such a crime does not mean we have no right or we cant correct ppl and tell them truthfully that perhaps a christian shld not do such a thing etc etc, basically if u wanna talk about right, we have no right to do ANYTHING! we're all disgustingly disgusting sinners! but this is the ironical part! because we're sinners! we can talk to those ppl about where they've gone wrong, cos we ourselves are screwed up! lol!
But first and truly first, we must change before we tell ppl where they have perhaps gone wrong, we must lower our defences, be willing to take hits from angels God has sent into our lives, then as a role model, go forth and uphold ur brothers and sisters in christ!
so rmb, the next time someone tells you. hey. you suck! say thank you and smile! then punch him! lol just kidding.
-cw
the passage was about how christ came not because of just pity and love, or NOT at all because of pity, he didnt come to symphatize with us, to say oh! u poor thing, let me flap ur cheeks! lol okay OOP. back to the topic, christ came to pierce all our hearts, the darkest secrets we have, how often we pray for God to bring us closer to him, yet at the bottom of our hearts, we're not willing to let go, not willing to let go of all the attention and popularity we are enjoying, not willing to let go of that crazed love for money, how often we say we will follow God, yet when asked to do something for him, example ministry and stuff, by our seniors and leaders, we say we are not good enough, too busy, dun feel like, no confidence! i am guilty of that too! hu isnt!
then the passage went on to talk about how we should be like jesus, as christians, we are representatives! AMBASSADORS! is that spelled correctly? hu cares. the way we talk, behave, think, should ENTIRELY reflect christ, not just one part, not just in church! not just when u are playing for the worship team that sunday! the passage says that we as christians must not mince our words, we must tell the truth, shed the light on those ppl who we KNOW are doing wrong, whom we noe are not on the right track, but lets face it, how often ppl have told us, ur not doing this right, i dun think this is the proper thing to do, we fight back with a phrase like "bible said nothing about this! show me in the bible where it says no doing this! " COME ON! am i right!??? lol! guess wad! i've done that before!!! lol!! but still, us being guilty of such a crime does not mean we have no right or we cant correct ppl and tell them truthfully that perhaps a christian shld not do such a thing etc etc, basically if u wanna talk about right, we have no right to do ANYTHING! we're all disgustingly disgusting sinners! but this is the ironical part! because we're sinners! we can talk to those ppl about where they've gone wrong, cos we ourselves are screwed up! lol!
But first and truly first, we must change before we tell ppl where they have perhaps gone wrong, we must lower our defences, be willing to take hits from angels God has sent into our lives, then as a role model, go forth and uphold ur brothers and sisters in christ!
so rmb, the next time someone tells you. hey. you suck! say thank you and smile! then punch him! lol just kidding.
-cw
Thursday, December 20, 2007
omg. boredom at max
i typed a bloody long post but my com hung and somehow the draft was not saved. so... bye. =)
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
JAM BBQ
in the morning i went to play soccer, not exactly morning, it was like 1.30 supposed to meet at 1, but as usual im always late, lol i was damn own today! i score 3 goals in one match, maybe the opposition wasnt there yeah, not really that high quality, but still i really am beginning to think im not bad, if i really do join acjc soccer team and derek really is inside(which roughly means i wunt get centre mid position) i may just try out for striker, dammit la derek is really damn good, as much as i keep telling myself i can beat him, he's just one helluva player on the field, everyone noes that. sigh jealousy problem again, im learning man, i must tell myself, life is not all about worldly successes, its really God that matters. its really him.
after soccer i went to gather everyone at bouna vista mrt, jammers. those who were going bbq la, all those who were not involved in planning which is already damn little ppl by itself, lol so we were supposed to meet at 4.30, guess what time we met, 5.30! lol typical ywav. anyway after that we went there.
it seems like everytime i see her i want to talk to her, i definately dun think i like her. but its just. after that night i know i musnt talk to her, so she wunt become to conscious and like regret opening up to me, then one day, many days later, she says she is having nightmares that i will tell her secrets away! lol retarded. at least i know im trustworthy and i didnt tell anyone anything, im good eh!
then today joy told me "she" told her that "she" was emoing and wanted to talk to me, i was like huh?? when?? then joy was like dunno sometime back, i was taken aback. then after "she" and i were standing at the table talking, then joy was quite surprised, she was like, whats up with you two? i was like huh? but we both didnt say anything just continue with our stuff, like ignore joy liddat. lol. but then i realise the rest of the night im just sticking to "her", playing cards with her, trying to talk to her, going with she goes. WT.......
i will like no one,no one. father, unless you tell me straight she's the one for me. no other way lord, no other way.
u noe the words, very, extremely and incredibly? add those 3 words together and multiply the intensity by 10, that is how i wld describe the bbq, in front of the word "bored" of course. lol. ppl were obviously left out, the group was obviously too big, and ppl like jay turning up? i was shocked. lol then plus zach and lejon crashing hahahahahha. totally dun mind them, but obviously some ppl were not happy, lol they went to play ball somemore in the midst of the bbq. LOL i bet serene was damn pissed off hahahhaha. well well. welcome to JAM!
then we watched hairspray? wad the heck man. okay im damn tired. adios
after soccer i went to gather everyone at bouna vista mrt, jammers. those who were going bbq la, all those who were not involved in planning which is already damn little ppl by itself, lol so we were supposed to meet at 4.30, guess what time we met, 5.30! lol typical ywav. anyway after that we went there.
it seems like everytime i see her i want to talk to her, i definately dun think i like her. but its just. after that night i know i musnt talk to her, so she wunt become to conscious and like regret opening up to me, then one day, many days later, she says she is having nightmares that i will tell her secrets away! lol retarded. at least i know im trustworthy and i didnt tell anyone anything, im good eh!
then today joy told me "she" told her that "she" was emoing and wanted to talk to me, i was like huh?? when?? then joy was like dunno sometime back, i was taken aback. then after "she" and i were standing at the table talking, then joy was quite surprised, she was like, whats up with you two? i was like huh? but we both didnt say anything just continue with our stuff, like ignore joy liddat. lol. but then i realise the rest of the night im just sticking to "her", playing cards with her, trying to talk to her, going with she goes. WT.......
i will like no one,no one. father, unless you tell me straight she's the one for me. no other way lord, no other way.
u noe the words, very, extremely and incredibly? add those 3 words together and multiply the intensity by 10, that is how i wld describe the bbq, in front of the word "bored" of course. lol. ppl were obviously left out, the group was obviously too big, and ppl like jay turning up? i was shocked. lol then plus zach and lejon crashing hahahahahha. totally dun mind them, but obviously some ppl were not happy, lol they went to play ball somemore in the midst of the bbq. LOL i bet serene was damn pissed off hahahhaha. well well. welcome to JAM!
then we watched hairspray? wad the heck man. okay im damn tired. adios
Monday, December 17, 2007
bored bored bored
I’m extremely bored. My bro’s in Taiwan, my dad mum and sis went to watch warlords which im not interested in. its 9.44 pm and I am extremely bored!
I have been randomly thinking a lot, but I haven’t settled on any definite topic, my mind is just floating here and there. Thinking about what I’m doing with my life, thinking about when im going to start swimming, thinking about why my mum keeps shouting and talking so boorishly. Thinking about how to get my walk with God back on track, thinking about why I keep postponing quiet time, thinking about what to do next.
Just thinking….
Why, why does my mood flutter so much, guys dun have biological mood swings, everyone knows that, so whats wrong with me. Why am I happy one second, angry the next, bored another, and then sad after a while? Why God? I trust you father in heaven, I really do, but I cant live my life like this, I need instructions, directions. I need you father.
Come upon me lord jesus.
I have been randomly thinking a lot, but I haven’t settled on any definite topic, my mind is just floating here and there. Thinking about what I’m doing with my life, thinking about when im going to start swimming, thinking about why my mum keeps shouting and talking so boorishly. Thinking about how to get my walk with God back on track, thinking about why I keep postponing quiet time, thinking about what to do next.
Just thinking….
Why, why does my mood flutter so much, guys dun have biological mood swings, everyone knows that, so whats wrong with me. Why am I happy one second, angry the next, bored another, and then sad after a while? Why God? I trust you father in heaven, I really do, but I cant live my life like this, I need instructions, directions. I need you father.
Come upon me lord jesus.
new blog cool
17th December monday
cool new blog, dunno what made me create this blog, i think its cos i have so many things to say, no bloody person to tell and hell lot of free time.
i've been thinking, why am i so screwed up, honestly i wanna grow spiritually, but what the hell! im doing nothing about it! Talk about prayer all that shit, seriously im damn glib man, i can tell ppl trust God trust God, but what the hell am i doing? nothing! lol king.
dear God please help me. please.
I've been thinking about alot later, i said i liked her, but is that the truth? Am i saying it cos i want to like her or because i really do like her? i think its the former, what the?! i keep talking about girls and how they dun help our lives, i agreed with lejon relationships at this point in time are all irrelevant and all that crap, but i keep joking that jen is my girlfren, at the rr camp, keep saying im married to sam, wad the hell am i doing? seriously.
then i say i wanna swim wanna work out wanna study , all bullshit. what the hell am i doing with my life? i feel no drive no meaning, where is the caleb burning so passionately about christ at the end of sec 2? where the hell is he?
today i went out with jerome, i was talking to him about one's walk with God and stuff. When things are not burning and all glittery like that of the case of my life now, can u really say i trust God? i love God? same as the sermon yesterday by rev george ong. How close are u to God? Can u really uphold him in ur darkest days? Can u really be the real life job that was in the bible?
God, i need a change in my life, a spark, to go forth and not hold back, i need you.
JEALOUSY. How relevant is that word is society nowadays? i have felt it more in the past months than i've ever felt it in my life. in my life! lol amazing. first the soccer that sunday across the field, i really felt i was the best player on the field. after the match ppl were just ranting about gabriel's one goal. please help me God.
then ywav/qbc camp wadever. BERTRAND AND YAM BOTH leaders, wth? and i wasnt even a dorm leader, nothing, seriously nothing at all. What the hell is wrong with me? i stopped doing the prayer list, come back from malaysia i find out the jam bbq is planned by 5 ppl cos maybe i thought i wasnt there when they discussed it on the saturday so i wasnt asked by eric and serene to plan the bbq.. fine by me. then guess wad, i hear frm yam they also asked joy and william to plan, isnt that everyone but me? why do i want to lead so much? am i just a superficial attention seeker? whats the reason im working out so badly? aint it all to be popular?
A good leader knows how to follow.
i cant find any part in the bible where jesus was not following, how am i supposed to relate? father help me get my walk back on track, its really you that matters, not the attention i would get, not the praise and credit, if i get it all now, thats all the reward i will get, that on earth.
Its the heavenly rewards i seek.
Father i kneel down at ur feet, mold me, please help me.i dun even dare to say use me, how can a holy glorious king use a dirty unworthy servant, but i know father u work in miraculous ways, thank you father for all you have done.
We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
he is the reason to live.
am i proud?
cool new blog, dunno what made me create this blog, i think its cos i have so many things to say, no bloody person to tell and hell lot of free time.
i've been thinking, why am i so screwed up, honestly i wanna grow spiritually, but what the hell! im doing nothing about it! Talk about prayer all that shit, seriously im damn glib man, i can tell ppl trust God trust God, but what the hell am i doing? nothing! lol king.
dear God please help me. please.
I've been thinking about alot later, i said i liked her, but is that the truth? Am i saying it cos i want to like her or because i really do like her? i think its the former, what the?! i keep talking about girls and how they dun help our lives, i agreed with lejon relationships at this point in time are all irrelevant and all that crap, but i keep joking that jen is my girlfren, at the rr camp, keep saying im married to sam, wad the hell am i doing? seriously.
then i say i wanna swim wanna work out wanna study , all bullshit. what the hell am i doing with my life? i feel no drive no meaning, where is the caleb burning so passionately about christ at the end of sec 2? where the hell is he?
today i went out with jerome, i was talking to him about one's walk with God and stuff. When things are not burning and all glittery like that of the case of my life now, can u really say i trust God? i love God? same as the sermon yesterday by rev george ong. How close are u to God? Can u really uphold him in ur darkest days? Can u really be the real life job that was in the bible?
God, i need a change in my life, a spark, to go forth and not hold back, i need you.
JEALOUSY. How relevant is that word is society nowadays? i have felt it more in the past months than i've ever felt it in my life. in my life! lol amazing. first the soccer that sunday across the field, i really felt i was the best player on the field. after the match ppl were just ranting about gabriel's one goal. please help me God.
then ywav/qbc camp wadever. BERTRAND AND YAM BOTH leaders, wth? and i wasnt even a dorm leader, nothing, seriously nothing at all. What the hell is wrong with me? i stopped doing the prayer list, come back from malaysia i find out the jam bbq is planned by 5 ppl cos maybe i thought i wasnt there when they discussed it on the saturday so i wasnt asked by eric and serene to plan the bbq.. fine by me. then guess wad, i hear frm yam they also asked joy and william to plan, isnt that everyone but me? why do i want to lead so much? am i just a superficial attention seeker? whats the reason im working out so badly? aint it all to be popular?
A good leader knows how to follow.
i cant find any part in the bible where jesus was not following, how am i supposed to relate? father help me get my walk back on track, its really you that matters, not the attention i would get, not the praise and credit, if i get it all now, thats all the reward i will get, that on earth.
Its the heavenly rewards i seek.
Father i kneel down at ur feet, mold me, please help me.i dun even dare to say use me, how can a holy glorious king use a dirty unworthy servant, but i know father u work in miraculous ways, thank you father for all you have done.
We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
he is the reason to live.
am i proud?
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