im in such a good mood! today was chinese paper, after that went to gym with zehang then went to play soccer with 1SC5 peeps and derek, then went home my father wanted to cook dinner but i suggested eating out so we went botak jones and i ate till i was SOOO satisfied. and once i reached home, it rained donkeys. WHAT a beautiful way to spend a tuesday!

:) its flooding over here! omg so fun!

yay! my mum got me a new umbrella! nice shade of blue eh? i asked her why she didnt buy pink, then her mouth dropped and she stared at me like i was a freak. LOL.

it is a beautiful sunday afternoon and i just returned home from church and im bored so i started taking random photos and posting them up. below is my handphone pouch! Phu gave it to me! nice eh! i know ur gonna say he gave it to me for a reason, but he actually let me choose between 2 and i chose this myself so RID URSELF OF THOSE EVIL THOUGHTS.

Darth Vader married britney spears and thru the power of the force, Darth Spears was born! a new and powerful dark wizard, darth spears had unimaginable powers! he was the only jedi in the entire dark federation that did not use a lightsaber! he used lightspears! throwing them with ridiculous accuracy, he was talent spotted by the singapore sports council! he changed his nationality from zimbabwean to Singaporean and represented Singapore in the Olympics at the event of ARCHERY! making it into the semi finals, the entire country celebrated for a new hero was born!

DArth vader had a younder s0n, his name was Jeremy skywalker! jeremy was jealous because his name started with J so everyone called him jealous jeremy but everyone called darth spears DAmazing darth! so jeremy decided to go swimming to drown his sorrows, but in the end jeremy himself drowned. Darth vader and britney spears were devastated but britney spears was more devastated than darth vader so she went home to sleep. darth vader died of loneliness and darth spears upon seeing the death of his father, died too. and britney spears lived happily ever after.

im bored.

this nonsense is quite funny! lol

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 82%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is Very High You go beyond being a "people person." Connecting with people is the most important thing in your life. You're empathetic, friendly, and outgoing. You are the kind of friend people dream of having. Your interpersonal intelligence is a gift. And you use it well.

How Does Your Interpersonal Intelligence Rate?

Your Love Element Is Wood

In love, you tend to gently dominate and guide your partner. For you, love is all about sharing goals and future plans. You attract others with creativity and vision. Your flirting style is defined by your honesty and assertiveness. Growth and improvement are the cornerstones of your love life. You may focus on goals too much in relationships, but you never come out of them with a loss. You connect best with: Water Avoid: Metal You and another Wood element: will be doomed to a stormy relationship

What Element Is Your Love?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you save for a rainy day. You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck. The hidden side of your personality tends to be easily attracted to fads and fashions. You are showy and want to be noticed. You are not able to relate clearly to others. You tend to become lost in clouds of confusion when attempting a task. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you are not too worried about finding someone right away. You're kind of laid-back in such matters.

Who's The True You?

i dunno why but i just feel like blogging, and i dunno why, but i dont know what to blog. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm zijian why these few weeks u visit my blog so much.lol then i cannot write things bout my cca. LOL just kidding smile dude. "people" will tell you anyway, if i really were to write stuff, you wouldnt need to come and see it urself. LOL. chillax ah.


anyway im gonna imagine my friday didnt exist, yes yesterday, cos it started really well, but got as crappy as it could possibly get. today is alot smoother though, woke up late, ate lunch, went back to sleep again, got up mid afternoon studied, then went out with jerome for dinner, for near to 2 hours. we went anchorpoint to chill out. good to catch up again, even though it wasnt our usual sit down for 3 hours and talk kinda meal, it was still cool.lol


you know, i think i have so much to say, but there's this barrier, this obstacle, called linguistics. like there really arent many words that can describe what im feeling now, the closest word i can think of is rojak. lol. but its not a negative thing, neither is it a positive thing. its a lame thing and i dont like it.


the word regret always appears in my life, not so much because i have alot regrets, but because i make alot of decisions that people often dont understand. so they ask me if i have regrets. and i get alot of people asking me if i have regrets. do you have regrets? i know deep down i have regrets, but i keep saying i dont, maybe its not so much that i dont, maybe its more cos i dont WANT to have regrets. but regrets is fine, its an emotion, its an afterthought, its evaluation of what would have be, or would not. emotion is fine.

but are we SUPPOSED to regret?

the Lord has a plan for all of us. his plan is like a bullet train, it moves, decisively, full of conviction and passion, there is no area to slow down and reconsider. it moves on. and we are like the passengers. when we enter the train, it moves, we move, and we never look back. perhaps the passengers can get off at the next stop and U-turn back to the original station, but the time that the train took to reach the station, that time will never return, its gone, the journey over. things will never be the same again.and God's the driver.

so move on.dont even think about looking out of the window.God's not gonna wait for you.
he never will.


you're my prince of peace
i will always live for you.

PRE PROMOS

tml is promos! lol today was a fun day.

woke up around 9, got chem energetics under my belt, then i went out to meet bert and yam at anchorpoint for lunch, and it was crowded so we headed to botak jones at depot road, and we called lejon out! lol then we went to play pool haha damn fun.


i left after about an hour or so while the 3 of them continued to play. i went home cos i needed to study. then guess what, i slept when i reached home.lol.... then i woke up and watched anime cos my brain refused to absorb anything. then my mum came home with dinner and i ate dinner and i watched the korean drama. so my afternoon = useless. what a great day.




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The Lord never forsakes.

what would you do?

i have today and tml off because of study break and exams start on friday, cool huh, so just now i was studying, and this random thought came to my mind.


imagine its the year 2100, and some tyrant has taken over the world, an updated version of hitler, ruthless, sadistic and every other trait of hitler x10. imagine the whole world is in ruins, and this tyrant is out to kill all christians.


imagine he has succeeded in doing it to every single christian except you and your closest friends and family, lets say you and ur... 3 closest friends? then one day ur family members got captured cos they ran too slow when yall were trying to escape officials.


so ur only left with you and ur 3 friends, then 4 of you decide to go to the headquarters and over there u see ur family members getting tortured by the retard who is 10 times of hitler. he is torturing them because he wants to know the whereabouts of you and ur 3 friends because you 4 are the last christians remaining and the fact that u 4 have not appeared is the only thing that has kept ur family alive, albeit being tortured.

what would you do?


you know trying to save ur family means the end of all your lives (you have absolutely NO CHANCE against this retard and his army of billions), not only can u not save ur family, your friends and you die as well.


but if you do nothing, how would you feel?
at this time, does stepping out mean u've lost ur will to live? so interesting huh? dunno why i had these thoughts also, it was SO random and just POPPED into my head, like God wants to tell me something but i dont know what. i even imagined a scenario! i said i would not go out and try to save them just yet, i would go back and come up with a plan, then one of my friends (the guy i pictured looked and sounded surprisingly like naruto, maybe i've been watching too much anime, lol.) screamed at me.

CALEB! WHY HAVE YOU BECOME SO COWARDLY WHEN THIS REAL TEST OF COURAGE HAS APPEARED!

then i screamed back

ooo wait ah, i dunno what his name was, hmmm lets call him..... clark!

i screamed back! CLARK! WHY HAVE YOU BECOME SO DUMB WHEN THIS REAL TEST OF INTELLIGENCE HAS APPEARED!

and i dunno what happened in the end, cos i snapped out of it and realised i had been reading the same electrochemistry page for the last 30 mins. cool huh.. what an afternoon....

what WOULD you do?
if christ-likeness is the finish line and worshipping God is running. then the race never ends.

u can sit on the fence, u cant sit on the coin. choose.

even a christian family is not exempted from the devil's pickings. and more often than not, the devil succeeds in messing them up. sad huh?

victory lies in the heart of the God-fearing.

there are 2 sides to every single coin. failuring an exam, losing a friend, getting betrayed, being punished, being lied to, having a dysfunctional family, falling into disastrous circumstances, having a dysfunctional family, losing a job, being wrongly accused for something you did not do and having a dysfunctional family. all these are just examples of a coin.


do u want to look at the shiny side, or the dull side? its up to you.
through every such occurence, i begin to understand more and more why God placed me here. to show me what i should not, and WILL not do, in the future. :D


To God be the glory.
The joy of the Lord is my strength.is he yours?

okay updates, my body is messed up. i think i got some bacterial infection or sth. yesterday i went home 2 hours early cos i was starting to feel feverish. upon reaching home around 1 something. i slept all the way to dinner, my body was stiff and it was aching, and i felt as if i had not slept at all. lol at night after dinner i felt as if i was gonna fall anytime.


anyway slept at 10, earliest i've slept in EONS. came to school this morning, during assembly i felt horrible, but i still went for PE anyway. come on, handball, how can i miss that! lol. then i felt dizzy like i could fall anytime, so i pink slipped(permission letter to leave school) out. that was around 12. i woke up 30 mins ago. lol so for all who read this, please pray for me, no idea what is wrong with my body, just know its messed up. lol.


anyway food for thought, on my way home, i was thinking about what i was to my friends, to the people around me. have you ever thought about people's impressions of you? what kind of impact you've had on peoples' lives? or if u have ever had any impact? if you were to die, barring ur family and CLOSEST friend(s) ----> this number shldnt excede 5, barring these people, is there gonna be ANYONE esle at all thats gonna remember you? for ur mannerism, for ur attitude, for the way u put urself across. basically, for who you ARE. if ur answer to this question is no or not sure, sure is time to change that.


think about the impact you wanna have on peoples' lives, or wld u rather sit one corner and just quietly live ur life while getting ur As and have people remember you as a genius lacking social skills? with the exclusion of einstein and thomas edison, try to think of 10 geniuses the world has ever seen. i'm sure u have difficulty filling up that list. but think about 10 people who have impacted ur life, something encouraging they said to you that turned ur life around, something they have done for you that absolutely melted ur heart. the list will fill up in less than a minute i assure you.


some people think that they own their life, and they want to do WHATEVER they want, "you onli live life once!" so ur attitude in studies is negatively nonchalent, you dont care about teachers, people who anger you suffer the wrath of your behind the back talk. who cares what they think about me?!! what matters is what I, ME, think about myself. if thats the way u think, and thats the way i OFTEN think, then ur grossly wrong, life's not all about you. imagine living on an island alone. we were meant to live with people, share with people, talk to people, laugh with people, cry with people, and last of all, leave earth with people.


what kind of legacy do you wanna leave when u die, if u die, and u never know when u WLD die, it may be tml, for me, it cld be the moment i press "publish post", we all never know. so we gotta leave our legacy each and every single day, each and every single moment we have. i think the impact im leaving behind is crap, a disappoinment and shame most of all to God, im sure if i were to die now, i'll grossly regret the way i have lived my life. but theres still time to change all of this. God being my strength, nothing can stop me. who do you want people to remember you as? do u think there will be a hole in someone esle's life if u were to leave today? think about it. if ur answer is no, time to ask urself THE question.


ARE you LIVING?
the joy of the LORD is my strength.

congrats jerome for doing well in ur exams, as foreign as that concept is to me, im super happy!!!!! trust me.

well my best friend's been studying, time to get started myself too right? lol

there is SO much i want to blog, but i cant seem to put into words. lol why? Thank God i have God, can u imagine if i dont have God gosh. how do people survive without someone to spill to? im sure even the closest of friends have moments where they cant share sth with the opposite person right? maybe cos they are in different environments, maybe cos the problem involves the other person as well etc etc.

i actually wanted to start this section where i share my reflections on my day with God, something like what jerome does, but i realised there are so many things that simply cant be put into words. such is the wonder of God's love that even the amazing thing called language is a failure. lol.

there are always words we miss out.
whats the meaning of everything? do you have something to tell me? please do.
if i say something magnanimous and understanding, theres a high chance i dont mean it, so turn it around and you'll get what i really wanted to say.

God will always be number one.

what does peer pressure mean?


i was looking through my archives from when i first created my blog and all that and almost every other post seems to be on my reflections about my relationship with Jesus, but now it almost seems as if NONE of my posts are on that. I still remember vaguely, i forgot who was it, but somebody told me my blog was boring, so i decided to talk alot less about all these "God is great, God is good!" stuff, no big deal wad, just stop posting about these stuff, nth's gonna happen!


months down im looking at myself now, i feel like an utter disgrace.my attitude, the way i've been behaving in school, with my friends, everywhere, its just disgusting, and its all because i wanted to please and make people read my blog. after i stopped talking about God and all that, the importance of God in my life has just diminished to a shameful state. What comes forth from ur mouth is prevalent in your heart, you will always subconsciously talk most about whats important in your life.


its time to change, Christianity is not a religon, Christianity is not some arty farty belief. Its a lifestyle, its what DEFINES who we are, and God is not some imaginary creature we created to have hope, to say "if i look forward to God, i will have motivation to live, if not theres no meaning in life!" Its more than just saying it, its meaning it, he is REAL and will always be, so if he's gonna take a backseat in ur life, i doubt he'd even WANT to sit in ur car, he's the driver, we trust and obey.


i just wanna thank jerome, i was reading his blog and i was thinking, it cant possibly get anymore boring, but thats nonsense! its the most exciting blog i've ever seen cos every other post shows what he really cares about and what is IMPORTANT and core to his life, it shows what is placed FIRST in his life. thank God for a friend like that, im sure he doesnt even know he has helped me wake up, but thanks man. and thank YOU God :)


ur actions and words clearly show what is deemed important in our lives. what is important in your life? Show it.

i just watched click. and i think all of you should too, love your family and friends guys, they dont last forever.

reflection.

okay hi guys! i've not been posting for a long time, alot has been going on, school and cca and other stuff, including my grandmother's death and all that, this past 1 month is got to be the toughest month thus far of the year, which is why i havent been posting, not so much of nothing to post(TOO much has been happening) but more of a lack of mood, and i've basically just not been myself.


leading up to today my walk with God has been ridiculous, my quiet time has been ridiculously non existent, my prayers shallow and i would be so ashamed if God were to ask me what i am doing. All this while, something in my is just preventing me from being who im supposed to be, who i am and who i want to be. Today when i went for splash, i was once again reminded, miraculously of how God is good all the time, and he's always there, and its a matter of whether we want to go to him or not, i was actually saying these things in my prayer when i was praying with pastor eric, and i was doing it subconsciously, it was almost like God was MAKING me say those words.


then in cell, serene taught us about overcoming the crisis/obstacles in my lives, about how we cannot hide our feelings and we as humans were created to have emotion and sadness, its alrite to be sad and grieve, and today has just been a wake up session for me, im still struggling to finish my work, i havent started studying, im starting to get worried, i'm feeling tried, theres so much on my mind, things that i wouldnt normally care about, i'll be going "ah its all gonna work out fine! " but i've come to a point where things dont just WORK OUT, u gotta reach out and MAKE them WORK OUT, like we dont just GROW close with God by shaking our legs, we gotta GO to him and make the decision to grow close.


for all the people i have offended and been treating badly, yes yam you included lol, forgive me, i've just not been myself, the emoness and all that, i'm really ashamed to even consider the way i've been behaving over the last few weeks, what is there that God cannot accomplish? What is there that is too much for God?

i dont wanna mess around anymore. its time to get serious.

"in all things, God works for the good of those who love him and are called according to his will........."