wednesday

today is quite a boring day to be honest! short and sweet day, we had lessons as usual, and im finding it harder and harder to understand math, i dunno whether its just cos its the topic or wad, but im finding it tough! LOL

worst part is i dun ask questions cos i wanna figure it out myself! But joy helped me quite abit already so i just need to catch up now. im lagging horribly behind in terms of tutorial, i hope i can catch up, this topic is really tough! sequences and stuff, i sucked at it in secondary school too! darn i hope h2 math is not all like this! and im starting to find chem hard too, and im starting to find econs too!

and the worst thing is, im starting to find a lack of time to catch up too! LOL its okay, life is good and all things work out in the end! LOL


anyway today after school, yam and timho came to acjc to "visit me" LOL thank you thank you, thats what im supposed to say rite? i said hi to them, and went home! hahaha thats so bad, but there was nothing we were going to do anyway and they were so free! you know, i feel like joining a second cca, its like i feel like i wanna be more active in school and stuff but i noe i just dont want to go back on my commitment and join soccer,its a calling i will stick to.



talking about cca, i havent gone for the morning meetings of CF the past 2 days, cos i have been feeling very tired spiritually and i know i wldnt be able to focus if i went for the meetings, it'll all just be a fomality, so i stayed by myself to did quiet time, todays quiet time for me was very good, i sat at the round stone table at the bleachers all by myself just reflecting about what has been going on and the condition of my heart, it was really fruitful! my devotion was about listening to what God has to say and always being alert and attentive to God's will for us! i've so not been doing that, the reason why i've been so tired lately, i feel, is just cos i've been doing way too many things without God in mind! all that's gonna change now! i'll work hard to make God the centre of my life, my focus! All reading this, please pray for me! thank you!

there always comes a time when you feel its meaningless to justify anything.

2 days worth of posts!

OKAY THIS IS supposed to be yesterday's post, so you can pretend all the TODAYs are YESTERDAYs. :D

Today was a pretty long day yeah, hmm went school, chapel was great as usual! LOL, then we had lessons and stuff and the day went pretty fine, typical day, until Chinese! Like half the class left cos they passed their higher Chinese O level so they didn’t need to take h1 chinese in jc, omg after that we had 1 hr 20 mins of lessons and it was the most boring Chinese periods I’ve ever had in my entire life! AHHHH! Anyway after that I went straight home, I have no idea why also, suann, mitch, abel and I were just walking walking after Chinese then we walked out of school, suann went into her mum’s car and the 3 of us just went off like that on our way home. Lol today is the first time I went home straight after school since coming to AC, FIRST time, I reached hme around 2.40 plus plus, I was like, hmmm… so early, do wad? Hahahahah then I decided to do my quiet time cos I’ve been rushing at at night recently, so I was doing it and I got dizzy while I was reflecting, so after I finished, I lay on my bed for a while, to chill out abit, wham! I fell asleep! Hahah and the first thing I woke up, I see my handphone, msg received from suann, the first words I saw were “idiotic caleb” LOL, what a great wake up call! Hahahahah suann was suaning me! LOL!
So after that I woke up and went for my class bbq at queens condominium, joy sim’s house! Or rather, EX class! But still my best class ever! Sec 4E! But of course, 1SA4 is still really great! Okay I was cam whoring at the bbq, it was so fun! Gosh so many pictures! I hate my eyes! I always close my eyes! These sizzling hot pictures of me that you see are pictures taken from amazing cameras that manage to keep my eyes open! Whooooo!!!!




lol rachel is hot rite? in this picture at least, but of course, it helps if the other person in the picture is.. ahem ahem! LOL kidding!





Im in the air you know? like seriously. we had 3 cameramen try to take jm and i flying, all failed. miserably, this is the best we salvaged, at least jm has a cool face expression! LOL

look at jingming(guy in light blue), true blue cheeko peh look:D













Jus look at cuifen!!!!! Gosh, sizzling!!! cuifen cuifen what are you! H O T H O T! LOL hmm i cant think of a punch line, asking yall to forgive me for lying is a common and over used punchline. darn. FORGIVE me anyway! :D














Is it just me, or do i see a gradient.......





can you see THE EYES.......?(look carefully.....)















What the heck is he doing!?





okay lol today was a very bad day, cos i was sick as in really REALLY sick, dunno why also, maybe cos i've been sleeping late recently, it was one of my sickest days this year, in fact, its the first day i've fallen sick this year! okay cya!

tired.

man im so tired.nobody will ever read this post, cos i changed the date to make it seem like an old post, so it'll be at the bottom and no one will realise it. if u do happen to see it, please pray for me! :)

these few days i've been feeling so tired, not physically, maybe physically abit, but more so emotionally and spiritually, i have no idea why also, i've been feeling spiritually drained, i feel so tired and i dont wanna go for CF meetings in the morning, so tired i dun even wanna go church. so tired i just want the world to stop for a moment so i can sit down and re evaluate wad has been going on in my life. but i know its got nth to do with my mood, nth to do with my feelings. Its all about God, and thats the way it'll always be. so i'll push on, God renews, he empowers, he always does. he will give rest to those who are weary and seek him. :D HELP ME GOD. :) btw, dont mistaken this post for a depression post, it is not, cos i'm always cheerful and optimistic. :)

sunday

im pissed. today i brought my camera out so i can take pictures wherever i go so i can post on my blog to make it more interesting, cos i think pictures make a blog colourful and nice! and i was snapping away everywhere i went, taking pictures with my beloved frens and i even took pictures of these CUTE CUTE CUTE little kittens that were in church. OMG the memory card got corrupted and i lost all my pictures!! WAD THE! im so pissed. so this is another picture less post. im pissed.


anyway today was the first day i went to eat lunch with my frens after service in a month, last week had powerpoint duty, last last week had to stay back to rehearse for REACH service, so on so forth, finally i get to chill out and go lunch with them like a normal human being! LOL! anyway after that we went to cafe galilee to chill then we went back to church for genesis precepts, its really hardcore man, its getting more and more demanding and more and more scientific, and im getting more and more tired! LOL, but i still want to go for it, cos i wanna hear all the big bang theory and stuff, i think its really interesting. and as christians, we must know our bible stuff so we can talk to non christians about creation and stuff! one of the reasons why non christians dun believe God exists is because evolution seems much easier for them to believe then just "snap" God created the world! SO, we must prepare ourselves with the knowledge of the bible, so discuss and talk to people! yeah! anyway, saturday is the sabbath, not sunday. cool eh. sunday is actually the first day of the week. hahahahahah SERIOUS!

okay anyway thats all, its a boring day events wise. lol exciting day spiritually! always is! :D

hmm

okay this will be a short and sweet post cos i've decided to add pictures from now on yet i dun have pictures from my day's activities so i shall keep it short!

woke up, did chem, rushed to church for drama rehearsal, REACH service at 3pm, performed in the skit(i felt it was not bad!) then went for dinner with frens then went home for dinner AGAIN with my dad. yay! great day!

friday

wah today tiring sia, acjc give us a day off to do our applications and stuff and so i went out with bert and yam in the morning to play basketball, we played at bert's hse, wah xiong ah, tired like mad. then after that we split up and i went to meet my OG at bouna vista mrt at 3pm, then we went dhoby ghaut and we went long john silvers to eat Dunch then we went to play pool. then we went for movie under the stars back at acjc where they played the movie simpsons and i happily slept thru half of it! yay! :D i love my og and ogls! LOL joleen i know your reading this, i love darjee!!! (serious!)

im really tired so this is probably the shortest "events" post i've ever typed, lol oh well! :D

4E class chalet

4e we are having class bbq!

cost:costless
place: Queens condominium (20 seconds walk from queenstown mrt)
time: monday 28th january 6pm to anytime you want
who: 4E

tell me if u can make it tell me if you cant.

why do i feel this way.

why do i feel this way?

psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd, i shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures
he leads me beside quiet waters.
He restores my soul
he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though i walk through the valley of death.
I will fear no evil. For you are with me.
Your rod and staff, they comfort me.


when pride does not exist, disappointment fades. In the darkness, the light shines the brightest. this is when i see God the clearest. Thank you God.

today

man, my class rocks. GO 1SA4! lol now i hope i can stay in AC. lol. my class is really super fun, today was a great day man, we were laughing in every single lesson and it was just such a blast being together with those guys. then during the contact time, our form cher mrs saw said she had nothing to do and asked us what we wanted to do and we were like giving names to each of us in this manner.

" eh u look like a cheryl, okay you're cheryl! eh you look like a tony, okay! ur tony! "

lol it was so funny and everyone ended up having a name, and my name is robin and mrs saw's name is Sally. hahahah wad a great 40 minutes those were. then we played concentration game with our new names and i ended up having to forfeit with jeslyn whose fake name is winnie. haha and we did the singles mass dance and obviously it was a screw up. lol but it was just so fun.

hmm other than that, today was a moderately normal day, after school ended i celebrated my OGL joleen's birthday with my OG and she was then lifted up by her class mates from j2 and thrown into the BIG rubbish bin. sick rite. thats how they celebrate birthdays in acjc, so the best thing is just keep a low profile and dun be popular then nobody will do anything to you. lol. and then they pushed the bin under this small place meant to store the bins, so joleen couldnt open the cover cos the concrete was blocking. damn sick la. lol anyway welcome to ac. hahah.

then after i left the school with jenisse julia rophi and laura and nicol and i met alot of my class mates at the bus stops and we were all calling each other our fake names, and everyone was calling me robin lol so weird. anyway, tml is finally the day of the o levels results. my fren asked me am i anxious or nervous or scared or anything, and i was like, really i dont feel anything at all, maybe abit of excitement, but its not because im confident i will do well(i'm not confident), its because the release of the results marks the end of a great phase in my life and the beginning of another. my frens were all telling me how afraid they were and i cld really see it in some of their faces and they asked me why i wasnt worried, im like, I did my best, i know i didnt slack, and i trust God, i really do, so no matter what score i get, like come on, i may end up going to the worst course in poly and changing the lives of some people who feel their lives have hit a road block or MY very own life could be changed to see how determined people are. i mean, we all never noe what God's plans are, so we just gotta hold on tight to jeremiah 29:11. God's plans are plans to give us a hope and a future. indeed.

i was joking with jingming on msn. we were like, if we really screw up, like get 20 points or sth, we will joke and laugh and pretend to take it in our stride, then we'll go home and CRY. LOL. but of course, i dont think i will do that, i'm already mentally prepared to accept anything that comes my way. my life has been to smooth to date. Time for a roller coaster babe!

I thank God for what he has done for me this year. just this year alone, its january 23rd, i cant believe its january 23rd, 23 days into the year, the amount of work God has done in my life this 23 days, so evidently clear, so evidently amazing. its just mad. Yesterday my devotion was, focus on the Lord and he will clear the way. When we commit into the Lord's hands, he really works. he really does.im trying to type this in a way to move people who read this, but i really cant, its undescribable how great God is, i've felt it first hand this year, and im sure, what i've experienced is just the tip of the coat, there is so much more in hand, so many more problems i will encounter, so many more times i will be sad, and so many more times i will lost my temper. but the number of times God's glory will shine blindingly will outnumber the sum of all those events X10. God has really cleared up so much for me, things are not WONDERFUL now, but God is, and thats all that matters.

all the best O levels peeps(me included) lol tml is it. lets go ahead man. i seriously gotta have more feelings.........

tuesday

yay today acjc announced that thursday school ends at 11.30 or 11.50 depending on the timetable and mine happens to end at 11.50 so yeah thats when my school ends. cool eh. and o level results will be released at 2pm in fairfield so.lol cant wait. then friday J1s have no school! acjc say they give us time to choose our school and apply on the internet. hahah so cool. i cant wait to see everyone.

today was a seriously useless day in terms of academics, seriously, absolutely useless. school is meaningless nowadays, im learning NOTHING in class, seriously, like lectures are so omg-ly boring, tutorials, the only thing fun is can talk and laugh, what the teacher is teaching is so totally in the NOTES! and the only reasons why im going to school everyday now is because
1. im a christian
2. they take attendance.

OH MAN!
what did i do today. hmm today was all just tutorials and lectures one after another. oh ya there was mass PE today. oh man, it is SO xiong. lol i cant believe they call that mass pe, i wanted to die already la, my fren even vomited, and there was this guy who wanted to faint, his whole face was pale. crazy. seriously crazy. 30 mins of PE can do this. AC is mad. no wonder everyone looks fit. lol. and they said this was the slack PE cos its our first and next time will be alot worse. madness. (madness? this IS AC.......!) lol okay wadever.

what esle can i say. OH YWAVERS READING MY BLOG rmb to invite people to REACH! lol. hmmm what esle can i say. man, my life is just so uneventful......

oh oh oh! my class rocks, its damn fun, serious! the people are funny, nice, and funny.... LOL. okay... nothing esle to say, THURSDAY IS CREEPING NEARER AND NEARER.................

pissed

AHHH HELP ME. its like an ant, CONSTANTLY scrapping at my nerves, ITCHING for me to smack it away.omg. help me God.
i was supposed to go watch 27 dresses today after school cos my school ends pretty early, THEN IN THE MORNING THEY ANNOUNCE THAT THERE IS A BRIEFING FOR GAMES REPS AT 4.30 OMG! wad the. pissed. really pissed! so no movie! instead, i have to sit down and do homework and everybody noes how inefficient it is to do homework in school when everyone is walking back and forth. SO, NO PROGRESS!. okay anyway today was a really boring day, first day of tutorials, no lecture today, the whole day was tutorial and we were laughing like mad in every class, my class is quite fun, gotta admit it, nice people. quite nice at least. chinese was the best, we laughed like a bunch of lunatics. it was fun la. but im starting to feel sick of jc life, its getting.....routined... okay i know sec school was routine as well, but somehow u just want to go school because of the people there and frens, but in ac, its just different. dunno how to explain, its fun and stuff, but that..longing to go school, just isnt there.

O LEVELS results release, 24th january, thursday 2pm. finally, its starting to feel like ages.

saturday.

i dont understand. i really dont. all the chem concepts that are taught have been taught before in secondary school, EVERYTHING is familiar stuff.its basically revision, then how come i have so much difficulty with the tutorial?? omg!

today was a moderately filled day, i woke up quite late because i went to the airport to see off aiwee yesterday night and reached home late, aiwee has migrated to austrailia, for all those peeps who live in a cave :) so i woke up around 10, i was supposed to wake up at 8 cos i have alot of stuff to do, but anyway, woke up at 10, rushed to my com to check if the church admin have sent me the powerpoint file for sunday's worship, cos there was rehearsal today. so i had to rush and correct the slides and add in background and make sure everything was okay for the rehearsal. then i ate lunch and went church at 2pm. 2.15 was SPLASH in church. it stands for sth but i forgot what it stands for, but anyway its bsically prayer. and i was leading it today, i lead on the 3rd week of every month btw. and i shared about my decision to quit soccer and faith. then after that went up to the sanctuary for ywav(youth with a vision), its what my youth is called. and there was worship then after that i cldnt follow everyone esle for CIA(cell in action) its where we split up into our own smaller groups for bible study. i cldnt go because i had to stay for worship rehearsal for the adult worship on sunday(im a powerpoint clicker btw, a great contributor to God's kingdom! LOL) so then we ended around 5.45 and i rushed down to my cell for the last 15 mins.

btw my youth is every saturday 3pm to 6pm so come join us if ur bored! its really really fun!

okay anyway after that i went for dinner with yam and lejon and im gonna sleep soon cos im half dead and i need to go church early tml so see ya.

oh anyway this is a dedication to aiwee.

you have been a great friend these 4 years(OMG 4 YEARS IN UR CLASS) what an honour it is! For me! you have helped me thru alot of problems in the past even though im always an ass. and ur really funny and hilarious with all ur ridiculous antics. u have certainly made my secondary school life alot more interesting and fun! now that u're in austrailia, im sure acjc and the fairfield gang will be alot more quieter and not as fun! But we know you'll always be with us in spirit(hmm sounds cliched) and we will always remember you! you know how lucky you are to have so many people go all the way to the airport just to see you off. goodness gracious me, if i were to migrate, i'm betting barely 5 people will turn up, and i'm even including my singaporean relatives in that "5". ANYWAY, GOD BLESS YOU! A verse just to send you off!

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29 :11

CYA when u come back!

whatever

im sick and tired of hearing people say im mean, i already said sorry to him 2 billion times. and i freaking meant it, so what the hell more do you people want me to do? every little damn thing i say, i screw up, EVERY SINGLE WORD I SAY will lead to someone becoming pissed.if we dont tease each other,its not fun?bs.ITS NEVER FUN when things turn out this way.wth.
this close to changing that letter.
thank God for jerome.thank you for always being there for me man,seriously,every single time.they say humans cant always be there for you so our only best fren is jesus.but what if God sends angels down.perhaps the angels themselves dont even know they are angels.thanks jerome.thank you.

When i made that decision, i knew with all my heart God is in charge.i knew that there is a plan for me.And the next moment, everything is falling apart,on one hand, i thank God, cos i know that his plan really exists, and its a great plan, so satan is trying to ruin everything, which explains for my screwed up ness now.on the other head, im frustrated, and pissed and extremely frustrated.almost everyone knows that i quit soccer to join christian fellowship, and now things are going this way, how the heck am i supposed to set an example when my life is this screwed up?why cant i stand him?WHY,it is said that God puts unlovable people around us to test and mould us.
My devotional says, there is no need to pretend to be full of joy and happiness, when you are in the darkness, just wait on the Lord and he will answer with his great plan. abram was in the darkness for 13 full years.i know mine wont last that long,so grant me perserverence oh Lord.
but in this case,is he the unlovable one?or me?IM THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THIS PROBLEM
bring me back up father, and drown my ambition in ur great plan.all i want is to worship you,let me forget about everything esle lord.everything i set out to do without you in the picture.let me forget them all.DAMN IT.

normal school day

today is a normal typical boring day, we had lectures and stuff, i only had lessons until 9.50 ! hahahahah so cool, but we're onli allowed to leave college at 1.10 earliest, so i just stone for how many billion hours and do nothing. anyway, hmm what should i write about, YEAH PUBLICITY!


HI ALL READING MY BLOG, MY CHURCH IS HAVING A YOUTH SERVICE NEXT NEXT SATURDAY, the 26th of january, the topic is on the power of sex! its gonna be SOOOOOOOOO FUN! COME COME! its 3pm to 6pm and queenstown baptist church, its a 5 min walk from queenstown mrt but you can always tell me if u wanna go !! yay yay! maybe i'll treat you a drink!! yay yay! GO GO GO! ALL ARE WELCOMED! Christian also welcomed, Non christian ALSO welcomed, ALL WELCOMED, SO ALL COME COME! ASK ALL UR FRENS! ASK ALL UR COUSINS! rmb, the topic is the POWER OF SEX! issit? yeah i think so, anyway! its a relevant and interesting topic so come come, there will be games and.....fun! so come!


okay hmm... i dun like the state i am in now, im in between busy and extremely free, its getting on my nerves! like some itsy crawley creeping up ur skin.................... hmm what should i type. hmmm happy new year!

crossroads in my life.

i first kicked a soccer ball in p5, random way to start a post i know.lol. everyone who knows me knows how much i love the game, i can play non stop for hours at a go, and no matter how tired i am, i will push on, because i love the feel of the ball!
in p5, i fell in love with soccer, i asked my dad to let me join soccer cca, he said no, cos my studies wld be affected, too close to PSLE, alright, reasonable excuse. i didnt join.
in sec 1, my dad finally said he allowed me to join soccer, then he sat me down and talked to me for 2 hours about how my studies must never be affected, about the friends i would make, and said i wld have to quit the cca if my studies drop, etc. my father is a principal, he talks REALLY WELL. 2 hours later, i decided not to join.
NOW, im in jc first year, acjc. my dad said he no longer can stop me, because in sec 3 and sec 4, i quit all my tuition and i never asked him for help, so i practically studied myself those 2 years and proven that i can indeed handle my studies.
as you can tell from the previous posts, i got into soccer cca, training with the J2s even. lol good eh? my passion and dream all come true.

today i quit soccer cca. lol.
when you tell urself God told you something, when you say God sent you a msg. how do you know its God? how do you know if its just ur own wild thoughts? think about it.
a decision in my life i will never forget.Lord, show me where this road leads.

some day this is.

some day this is. i wonder why im like this today? today i was continually walking on a temper tightrope, seriously. i was burning inside and just waiting to flair up any moment, but i was just controlling like crazy, i was like "hold it hold it" the whole damn day. controlling like crazy. i dun noe where the anger is coming from, maybe lack of sleep. in the morning i had very bad stomach ache already, so that made things worse. Thank God i'm home, thats what i thought when i reached home, how wrong i was. im so touchy man. my father scolded me for looking reluctant to help him and my mum, like what the hell? my mum ask me to do household chores at 12.30 last night when i was just about to sleep when she didnt ask me for help for 2 hours from 10pm when i was so extremely free sitting at my computer doing nothing, and im supposed to say YAY LETS DO CHORES! NOW! WHEN IM ABOUT TO SLEEP! screw man. lol its like SUNDAY blues. im just so eager to punch something now! i hope this feeling floats away soon. oh and my grandmother fell down and is in the hospital. okay for all who are reading my blog for the first time, i onli have such outbursts once every few months, so dont be shocked and think im some emo freak, cos im actually very cheerful. :)
remove this emotions that is not of you.
the word was walking on my tongue.i can feel it.
God help me!

friday

today was as boring as ever. maths is fun as ever.and school is as typical as ever.LOL! just kidding today was okay i guess, proper lectures started today, and my day ended at 10.30, thats some screwed up timetable eh! lol! okay btw i end at 9.50 on nxt tuesday and in AC you only can leave school earliest 1.10. thats some screw up man. if one of the slots on tuesday is not KI, i wld so willingly consider ponning! lol im just kidding, i never break school rules :)

okay anyway today was the 2nd round of trials, play matches again, i played like some crap, like seriously. but somehow the coach selected me to play the match of J1s vs grads. the j1s were all the best around so i presume the coach thought i was good! hahahahah yay! just kidding but i was really some horrible....horribian. lol!

anyway i was some screw up, i had no stamina, and i was playing right wing. omg. thats like the position to run THE MOST. lol and my stamina among those in the team, i believe was THE LEAST. lol! anyway b4 that match, in the j1s vs j1s match, i hit the post with the entire goal at my mercy and everyone laughed. omg.

okay back to the point, i scored a goal from an assist by yong gen, omg he's damn good. and the coach asked me to come out and asked me what my name was. so yeah kinda cool. okay after that, the j1s gathered and the coach say everyone who turned up is in the team, however he selected 8 of us from among all the j1s and said that we wld join the senior team, which means train with the J2s and yeah, go for the matches and stuff and the rest of the j1s will train seperately, developmental training. and i was one of the 8 so yeah it was quite cool. so the rest went home and we stayed to train with the j2s till near to 8.lol damn late, and yeah. here i am. at hme, and the weekend is here. thank God.



the light shines brightest in the __________
praise you in the morning, evening and night.
every second i look up to you.

yo peepsy

today was all the subject registration and stuff, nothing much, my subject combination turns out to be chemistry, maths, econs and knowledge inquiry, all H2 subjects then my H1 subjects are projectwork and chinese. lol when the list for KI came out, there were 37 ppl who qualified, i thought everyone who sat for the test qualified cos its like hell lot of ppl, but turns out, my fren told me her fren from her og didnt qualify and is going to appeal, so... i got in? lol cool!

today we took stuff like weight and height and stuff, the scale is so inaccurate, my height dropped by 2cm, and all my frens were complaining that they all became shorter, lol! quite funny. hmm after school all the fairsians went to dover to reminisce those times where we had lunch together.lol. i was thinking, this jc experience totally pull all the fairsians together, like i dun usually talk to ppl like ian and joel wong, but now we're so comfortable with each other and we're like good frens! lol so fun so fun. i heard jj totally sucked and all the fairsians in jj are like going everywhere together, hahah thats quite funny! but still, i still love my og and think they're damn fun, GO DARJEE! :)

typical day

today was quite alrite, i went for the first lecture, economics, and i skipped the rest, cos i had no mood, lol today i didnt hang out with my og for the first time( dont get me wrong, i love my og!)
but one of the devotions say must consolidate old frenships so today i hung out with my fairfield frens. hahahahahah! hi ogl, if ur reading, see! i have valid reason! :)

so i skipped the rest and i was with my mates just joking and talking nonsense, walked from bleachers to cafe to bleachers to canteen for like wad 3 hours or sth? lol sth like that not sure. doing nothing, lol, no life man. so after that we went for house meeting, SVM, honestly its the name i like the most, it sounds hip and stuff. lol. so we went for the meeting. hmm nothing much to say about it. so then sch ended!

lol so it was around 2pm, i went to the bleachers and just sat with jubilee and did nothing, just stone and talk then lilin appeared, and we all stoned and talked. then lilin went off for Music Elective Programme with joysim when joysim appeared, so jubilee and i played chinese chess and nicol arrived and before we cld finish the game, nicol and i had to go and change to go for soccer tryouts. (jubilee wld have won the game anyway! lol)

so we went for the tryouts. quite a number of J1s, like around 20 i think, not sure maybe less, cldnt quite tell. So we ran 5 rounds which is like 2km. as warm up. okay im gonna show you a fitness scale i created.

1.inhuman fitness
2.ridiculous fitness
3.extraordinary fitness
4.seriously very very fit
5.seriously very fit
6.SLIGHTLY above avg fit
7.okay fit
8.average human being
9.slightly not fit
10.not fit
11.not fit FULLSTOP
12.omg! do you even walk?????


guess where i am at? i was thinking about it while i was running, i think im 13. thats like CMI(cannot make it). i was like wad?, 2km, i almost died! lol i hope jessicayip doesnt see this, damn no face. my calves were all cramping and stuff. oh my........seriously no life.then i wanna die la, jog so much during the tryouts. okay, honestly, in my mind, i felt that the training was seriously damn slack(i was imagining from an onlooker's point of view) it was so slack la! SERIOUSLY VERY SLACK! BUT GUESS WAD! i couldnt take it!!! LOL............

okay so, the coach split the J1s into 4 teams and they take turns to play against each other. The first match, i played centreback(defender) cos i was thinking, i dun have stamina(which is true lol!) so i cant run much, so i cant play midfield which i like to. Nor striker cos i scared i screw up. lol! so i played CB, i think i was okay, but still concede. sigh.... i was quite screw up once actually, the goal kick i kick straight to the opposing team's striker, haha dun need to tell u wad happen next. so i was like "man im some screw up"

so the 2nd match i told my fren to play defence, and i go play striker! yay! and i scored like 2 albeit it being somewhat tyco. lol u noe the ball goes ping pong ping pong here and there and u just smack it into the goal when it appears in front of you? lol im just joking. so i played alrite.

it was already 5pm by then, we started at 3. then the coach gathered all of us to talk to us, then he said all the J1s can go home, but he wanna see afew ppl, so he pointed to a few guys, less than 5, me included. then he asked the rest to go home. then he asked us if we can stay till like around 6 to train with the senior team, the J2s. lol i was like okay, even though i was half dead, cannot see tired rite, so gay, later the coach dun want me! lol. but it was cool la, although i trained like some nonsense, i think the coach dun like me cos quite a number of times the ball came my direction but abit too far then i jus watch it fly away. LOL. he must be thinking, this is some seriously heck care guy man. sigh! so after that i went home.

the second round of trials where everyone has to come back(so says the coach) so i'll just come back and see i guess.But im still deciding, i may end up just in CF(christian fellowship) alone and not join any other cca, dunno man, will see will see!

:)

God loves you! its so wonderful to have a friend you can lean on and count on when your tired and just feeling burnt out, God has said, come to him all who are weary and take his yoke which is light, and he will give you rest. How comforting is that? time and time again when i know i reach the limit of my human ablities, i'm confident and aware that God's there to break my fall!

what a friend i have in jesus!



Today was a continuation of mock lectures to show us what a lesson is like in the jc, its quite cool actually, lectures and stuff, but u seriously need alot of discipline to pay attention in class and just ignore what ur frens are doing, its so easy to flow with the crowd and just play around in the lectures cos its so boring and theres such a big crowd of people. Oh well, im still considering if i should go poly, firstly im not even sure i will be able to stay in AC after my o level results come back, secondly, im thinking if i actually want this jc lifestyle. My last lecture of the day was knowledge and inquiry, its just a whole lot of crap, but i like it, cos its damn fun to talk nonsense, but i may not take it anyway, i doubt i'll even qualify after leaving the test 40 minutes before time ended. After the lecture, i went to queensway to buy soccer boots for trials tml cos my previous pair was borrowed by amar, and LOST. lol amar i need to talk to you. anyway samson was with me and i lent him the boots after buying cos he needed for rugby try-outs which is today, so he's gonna return me the boots tml. lol after that i went to sakae sushi at tiong bahru plaza with my og and just chilled and ate the buffet thingy, its quite cool, i spent over 30 bucks today and yesterday combined, in other words, no meals for the rest of the week. LOL!

Is it the ego, father?i need to talk. i'm tired. But i want to do more, give me more to do!
okay thats about it, its getting more and more boring each day, lol!

monday

today was the first day of lectures, it was all introductory lectures and stuff, kinda boring a day, ac cafe food rips ppl of their money man, super killer, the canteen is okay but the cafe(at swimming pool) is super OMG. seriously, like wth man, 4cm by 4cm plate of spaghetti is 4.50! LOL ok im exaggerating, but its really kinda that bad! The rest of the day was okay, i went to sit for the KI diagnostic test, for fun la. its super retarded. these are the questions.

1. Space creatures kidnap and examine humans and cause them to have amnesia so they cant rmb what happened, so all who have amnesia tend to have been kidnapped by space creatures.

how convincing is this argument? 150 words


2. Actions are permissible depending on the circumstance etc etc, for example it is okay to eat one's comrade to fend off starvation after a plane crash and there is nothing esle one can do.
however some acts are always not permissible in all circumstances.

are there such acts? 500 words

something like that la im not sure the exact words, gotta finish both in an hour half, its damn retarded, im confirm out man, lol i left 30 mins early, too sian already. lol!

sunday

today is quite boring, went to church, i mean church is not boring, church is a totally blasting blast! but as a day, quite sian, after church, went to eat lunch, then went for genesis precepts course, the file is tua big man, lol so much work to do, lol we're totally in for a hardcore 7 weeks man! then after that, went to visit nat foong in AH(alexendra hospital) cos he had appendicitis, is that how you spell it? i'm too lazy to check. after that i had to rush home for dinner. lol aint that boring! haha................

YO TURN IT UP OH WEE OH WEE OH WEE!

HEY AC IN THE STANDS LET ME SEE U WAVE UR HANDS WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

haha ytd was the 3rd day of orientation, but i didnt post anything cos my com screwed up and i was too tired to post ANYWAY, so im gonna post today, today is saturday, the last day of orientation, actually im writing this at 12am plus so practically the last day of orientation was ytd.

firstly, before i start talking about day 3, i wanna talk to all those misers out there like me before, no matter how horrible a situation is, or a circumstance seems, always be positive and be optimisitc, God honours that man. and seriously, his rewards are sweeeett.!

day 3 was much much much much better than day 1 and 2, and at the end of day 3, i was actually quite okay about the thought of going to day 4, lol after the horrible thoughts i had about ac on the 1st and 2nd days. okay let me get this right, after eunice's tag, i get the feeling everyone who reads my blog thinks im a zombie in orientation, but i AM SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER HARDCORE ENTHU, okay? just that i didnt find ac exciting and fun thats all, but i was still super initiative and enthu okay! that was my new year resolution, hardcore in everything i can possibly do, study, CCA, try out for council, church, every single thing! YEAH MAN! okay back to the point, i didnt like AC even tho i was damn enthu and stuff, but day 3 got better, we went crazy with the games, there were 4 main dirty games, and so happens, my og(orientation group) went to ALL 4 stations. LOL.

1st game
CRAWL IN THE MUD WITH UR BODY FLAT, know what i mean? lol. btw, the loser og, thank God it wasnt ours, had to ROLL in the mud damn sad man.... oh btw, i didnt play, cos i had open leg wound, but no diff anyway, my whole og hug me, my clothes was as dirty as theirs, okay maybe not as bad, mine was spots of brown, my fren's black shirt, TURNED BROWN, now. picture it. =)


2nd game
Get fruits, put it on a rattan stool with holes on it, u noe those type? got alot of small holes one, and sit on it and squeeze out all the juice, and a container is under the chair to collect the juice, lol!


3rd game
Get wet starch thrown alll over you, whack upside down in out left right. lol.


4th game
Transfer shaving cream on ur face to another person's face without using ur hands, its supposed to be transferred down a chain of ppl, then the og who collects the most cream at the end of the chain wins. lol.


we played the 4 games consecutively. shiok ah? lol i threw away my clothes, both shirt and shorts at the end of the day btw, and i was so disgustingly dirty that i didnt want to wait for everyone(ALOT OF PPL) to bathe finish so i just went home in a taxi. lol freaking 8 bucks, thats what i call RIP OFF. im talking bouna vista to queenstown! wads a euphemism for screwed up?


so there, day 3, due to all the retarded and dirty games, our og bonded quite abit, but the dance was quite sian for me, cos jessica, my partner didnt come, not the fairfield jessica, the payar lebar jessica, so the couples dance i had no one to dance with, i was actually dancing with michael who is quite a big guy, so yeah, picture the situation, its a COUPLES dance.


ALRITE! DAY 3 WAS SO PREVIEW ONLY! what we wanna talk about is DAY 4!!!!! YEAAHHHH WHOOOOOO!!!! LOL! Because of today, i will consider staying in AC, in fact, the see saw balance has tipped, now its 51% stay in AC 49% leave, lol kidding! hey jenisse, i still love you even tho i think AC is damn fun, so if u wanna talk to me about AC, you can okay! i'm available! :D:D:D:D:D

Today, we gathered at 8.30, thank God for that, i cld sleep later, my body was totally breaking down. lol. so we gathered at the bleachers, for those who dunno where is that, its the stands at the field, the seats all that, its called bleachers. so we gathered there, and when i met my og there, i already knew it was gonna be a fun day, cos we were so much more open and talk-able LOL no such word again, compared to the past 3 days, we were just exchanging numbers and talking like old frens already! lol, then the day started with wad ah? i forgot. hmm mass rally i think, thats like everyone just cheering and shouting. is that it? i think so, cant rmb, aiya hu cares, then we did the typical stuff, practice the dance moves and stuff, practicing dance was made SO MUCH more fun with the return of jessica, though she's a horrible dancer! LOL kidding! we were just laughing and laughing and laughing non stop cos she's so funny when she dances.she's like flying around and stuff, lol damn siao. okay im not talking about the activities in any sense of order cos i cant rmb which we did first and stuff like that.

We also had CCA exhibition, which was held in the AC badminton hall at the pool deck. I signed up to go for the trials/take-a-looks for canoeing, soccer and CF, i dun rli know what to join, i wanna join something that will kill me, like make me damn tired and super super busy, that kinda thing, lol rmb my new year resolution! i wanna be so busy till i have no time to rest AT ALL! lol! alot of ppl sure say im crazy, and im sure alot of ppl will say im talking like this cause i've never experienced being in a leadership position before and dun understand the rigours, but the reason why i want to experience it again, is because i have TASTED it once, just the very tip, and its so exciting, so fulfiling, if ur just doing everything for obligation sake, u start to feel everything is meaningless, but if u are dead busy, with God in sight, things just feel so exciting, so..... YUM! so as i was saying, im really tempted to join CF, it looks good, oh btw, its CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP. Like i mean, getting a CCA to remind you that God doesnt only exist in ur life when ur in church, but every single day of ur life as well.

Also, i heard this year AC soccer team is quite good and last year they trained super hard cos they thought they a chance to win, but sadly they got kicked out just before semis. So i was thinking it cld be quite cool to join, but i saw the ac boys training, and they're like vulgar and stuff, and they seem quite proud and stuff, only stick to themselves, so im not sure about it, maybe i'll go for trials and take a look, see how first. See if i can even GET in, in the first place.

after that we left AC, for OG outing, just go anywhere we want, we had 4 hours, our initial plan was to go the new amusement park in kallang to ice skate, then we figured we didnt have enough time to go there, so we wanted to go jurong east, then again we figured we didnt have enough time, so we ended up going to IKEA across anchorpoint just to eat. it was 4 plus, so the meal can be called Dunch(according to Belinda) or Lunner(according to me). It was a seriously fun and great time of bonding, we were just joking and talking about anything under the sun, music, stuff like that, and teasing jia hui cos we all had a piece of paper with our name on it, and everyone in the og must write a comment on it so we have this piece of memory, then wei yang wrote super super long on jiahui's paper, so yeah u shld be able to guess what we were teasing about already. lol

okay i seriously cant describe the feeling i had today, it was fun man, the entire day was actually okay, but the night. omg. just give u a feeling of what it was like, i was high. and the way i behaved and EVERYONE esle behaved, im pretty sure NOBODY gave a hoot about what other people thought about them. thats how high we were. it cant be described here. u gotta be there! the last time i've been this high was the end of 2006, in church, watchnight. But tonight was even crazier, i dare say that. seriously. jessica said to me at the end of everything, " now i noe u have potential to be future clubber!" LOL. but of course, i will never go clubbing, personal decision. it was so crazy. my shirt was as wet as if it had been submerged in a pail of water and pulled out. it was crazy. just mad. there was no campfire, even though it was called a campfire, thats caused it rained and pulled the equipment into the hall, then it stopped raining, but too late to bring everything back out, so they just held it in the hall, but somehow i was glad, cos its alot quieter indoors then outdoors, and got air con summore, so can talk properly. But anyway, when we started dancing and going high, nobody was going hear anything at all anyway, ppl were screaming, shouting, jumping, running, there were at least 20 human trains. LOL HARDCORE! But of course, i will not be like (OHHH!! I LOVE AC, I MUST STAY!!!) just because of one fun day. i'll take a look at the proper lifestyle next week where there are lessons and stuff, i am seriously still considering poly. no matter how late the signal may be, i know God will give me one to tell me what his will is. so im waiting. patiently.

but for now. God totally blessed me. totally! i love you darjee!(my og) For all the fairsians who were like me, i know why yall dun feel the omph in AC, i came up with this theory, fairfield is a super family, friend-culture kinda school, honestly speaking, even though i've onli studied in fairfield sec all 4 years, i dare say i believe fairfield has the best "family" culture in the whole of singapore. its just so warm and friendly, so when we went AC, where ppl from 73 other secondary schools join us(73 is a statistic given to us by the principal), we are unable to feel that family feeling, instead, its very cold, very "FUN" and "COOL" kinda culture, not the one we are so used to, and loved to be soaked in, in fairfield. But come on! Be like me! Say AC is boring but still actively participate in everything! You dunno what can happen if God decides to use an open and optimistic mind! Trust him!



AC! ARE YOU HOT!


BURNING HOT! SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.......



thank you God for everything.

1st and 2nd day of school!

okay i know i forgot to thank my soccer khakis and BB frens for 2007, so here goes, thank you! LOL. sorry for the brief thankfulness!


okay ytd was the first day of school, my dad fetched me to school as usual cos its on the way to his school. i reached school ard 6.35, guess what time we are supposed to assemble? 7.30! LOL. so i just sat there and enjoyed the view and immersed myself in a sea of emotions that included, what the heck am i doing here so early? and wow, im already here after 4 years... well, it wasnt long before zijian called me to ask me where i was, and even quicker for zijian to find me and we just sat down and chilled out. Talking about fairfield and stuff.

THEN, i saw ruixiang, omg, cant believe i saw rx, my p6 classmate, i was like, huh! u got in?? u bribed the school! Lol. just kidding, looks like rx actually studied! haha amazing, hahahaha... okay then afterwards i also saw jemtan and junsiew, so its kinda cool.

Jenisse and charisse arrived shortly afterward and we said hi then jen went to join the 4E girls, she's okay with them cos so many from GB. so zijian and i went back to sit down and emo. lol. then 7.25 we started to make our way to the hall. The last time i went to acjc was during the openhouse and the hall was used for the cca exhibition booths, i was thinking, thats a damn small hall man, like 3/4 of fairfield and i already thought fairfield's was damn small. but when i entered this hall this time, i got a shock of my life, its SO HUMONGOUS. they opened up the slides separating the hall and the lecture theatre so when its both joined together, its just huge huge huge man. so then we had talks and stuff and all that, not interesting enough to talk about, so i'm gonna skip it all. though the discipline talk was quite funny, mr lim, the dm, is really quite hilarious, giving the "let the light pass thru between you and your friend", "give ur fren personal space" talk. lol it was quite funny.

then we had a 40 min break. i was like...huh wad the? give afew talks then have 40 min break, lol so retarded, i thought we wld play games or sth.so we just went down and rested, did nth really, just going around making frens and saying hi or being said hi to by ppl i already knew like the J2s or secondary school frens from other schools. it was quite cool.

after that we were separated into guys guys and girls girls for separate talks with mr lim giving the guys a talk he titled, "THE talk". he gave a whole talk about rules and regulations for guys and stuff like that. then there was question and answer session and this dumb idiot rose his hand and tried to be funny and asked "where do babies come from?" lol what an idiot. he was wearing barker uniform with the prefect badge, shirt tucked out, and mr lim was damn quiet. he stared at the guy awhile, then spoke into the mic and said in a firm scary quiet voice, asking the guy to come out and stand in front of him, then the guy came out like some gangster, and mr lim said "tuck in your shirt, then repeat ur question in front of everyone here, into the mic" he was already raising his voice. lol that was so funny. then the guy did that, and everyone was laughing, then mr lim rose his voice and scolded him, saying he wld forward the question to barker school and said he sympathized with barker students for having such a prefect, then he asked the guy to stand at the side and dismissed everyone esle. when everyone was leaving, the guy sneaked out with the rest. and mr lim shouted "barker boys better go get him, if i cant get him, i will make all the barker boys line up one row outside the office" lol it turns out the head prefect of barker came to ac so he went to find the guy, u noe cos he has obligation to protect his school's image. later on, mr lim announced that the guy was actually a gatecrasher wearing the barker uniform and wearing a prefect badge that did not belong to him. so he was not posted to ac, he was not from barker, and he wasnt a prefect. wow. role model gatecrasher!

okay for the rest of the day, we just played games, learnt the cheers and stuff quite boring and i've forgotten alot of what has happened anyway since im only writing this today.

so so, on to the 2nd day. today was the 2nd day of orientation, to be honest, i find jc life quite boring now, i mean if THIS was supposed to be their version of fun, then, i cant imagine whats boring. Okay maybe its not the jc, maybe its just the J1s, they're just omg-ly omgish boring. they're like wooden planks la!ALL DEAD! so today, we had alot of talks in the morning, like 2 hours at one shot about acjc, subjects, ccas and stuff all at one go in the morning, and everyone was getting restless and tired, THANK God i went early with zijian to sit at the side, so i was not squeezed to death like i previously was. then after that we had lunch, i tell you, acjc's chicken rice is just imba quality, its probably one of the only good things i find about this orientation, the food is shiok, one plate of chicken rice is 2.20, then add rice is like 20 cents so my first place was that, 2.40, it was so shiok, i whacked the chiilli they provided, and its like BURNING HOT, Tssssssssssss! shiok man, then not enough i went to buy another plate, but this time i never add rice, i add eggs, so its 2.70, WAH SHIOK AH! Excellent excellent food man, because of the food, and THE FOOD ONLY, i shall contemplate staying in AC. you noe seriously, im totally entertaining the thought of applying for poly with my O level results when i get it cos this doesnt really seem like my kinda thing. I'm being enthu like mad, actively participating in everything, things that ppl dun wanna be first in, i'll do it, like the one where u have to whack ur face into the flour and get the polo sweets and all that, but nobody seems to care anyway, it gets sian after awhile, get what im saying? lol SERES-LY (thats a pun, one of the OGs is called Seres).

After lunch, we continued to learn the mass dance and stuff, quite fun la the dance, but too many steps liao, get confused after awhile! lol, then we played lotsa dirty games, like sliding ur ass across a bench with water and soap to play scissors paper stone, or wearing a greyish dirty socks, a drenched pe shirt, and stuff like that, or dunking urself in those pools(u noe those types can buy from supermarket one, then inflate it and fill it, its for ppl to use at home, for their little toddlers and stuff), and squeezing out as much water as you can. i was so trying to have fun, like being sporting and spontaneous and screaming my hearts out and cheering like mad for the cheers and even during the games, but when its not noticed, after awhile you just start to become sian and by the end of the day, i was already response-less, lol no such word tho i think.

Then i walked from acjc to bouna vista mrt to take mrt home, and i was thinking, somehow, i felt as if God was talking to me, he was like saying "be urself, be natural, most importantly, have fun, thats what i want you to do now". All along, i kept thinking, im gonna be extremely enthu and stuff, if there is a best orientation-ee, lol no such word either, i'll definitely get it,DEFINITELY, and i was thinking, these 2 years im gonna be damn hardcore, im gonna study my life away, im gonna serve in church ministry till i drop dead, i'm gonna train in my cca like siao, possibly if i can, become soccer captain and stuff, like, just go ALL OUT, and dun hold back, go to the stage where im so busy, i dun have a second to breathe, like every second is meaningful, and these 2 years totally count, possibly even run for student council, noe what i mean? those were the things on my mind, but when u become obsessed with ur goals and ambitions, u forget who's driving the car. My devotion last night was to surrender my life to God, is it really that hard to do it? or do i simply NOT want to do it? Theres an analogy that goes like this, im a human walking at the edge of a cliff at the side of a mountain, life is always walking on the edge of the cliff, u never know where ur gonna go, u can climb even higher, using ur own effort, ur own strength, ur dream is to reach the top of the mountain. But God is an EXTREMELY strong wind, strong enough to blow you forever and make sure u never hit the ground, but this wind is special and unique, u will NEVER be blown away unless u jump of the cliff. Are u willing to let God take control and take charge and let him perhaps blow you to the mountain peak of a mountain possibly even higher than the one you already are on? or wld u rather climb to the peak of THIS mountain urself? theoretically, the answer is obviously the former, but why is it so hard to do in reality?


help me God, to lay everything, EVERYTHING, i have at ur feet.

Thanksgiving.

i realised that i havent posted anything to thank God for what he done for me this wonderful year and for the ppl he has put in my life to make my life so meaningful. In no particular order i will attempt to thank the people who have affected my life. i'm not gonna thank everyone, if not i have to write for 3 days continuously so i'm only gonna selectively thank. if your not happy ur name did not appear, tell me, i will edit to put you in XD. If ur name doesnt appear, it only goes to show i have bad memory, NOTHING esle. I love you all :)

I wanna thank God for putting me in 4E, all 4E people, i love the nuts outta all of you. all the fun we had, all the memories we accumulated over the 2 years. thank you all those people who voted me chairman. because of this privilege, i dare say 2007 was the best school year of my life. Thank you!

Thank you fenny fen fen for all ur nonsense and enthusiasm for 4E, its highly appreciated, and annoying. hahahah just kidding.
Thank you zijian for ur leadership and help
Thank you joel for slacking. lol just kidding, for being a good one on one player to pit myself against!lol!

special thanks to jm aka my "brother" who lied to me by saying he doesnt like any girl, but already has a girlfren. gosh i shld show the girl the msn convo man. he'll get 13 slaps! apparently 13 flowers means frens forever, so a fren of mine told me. so 13 slaps means enemies forever? LOL!!!!

I also wanna thank God for all the leaders of ywav who put in so much effort despite still being in the midst of studying and working. gosh imagine if it was me, i'll be like, i'm tired man. real tired. So thank God for this great ppl who lead us and guide us and have a heart for us to grow closer to God each day.

Thank you eric for all the laughter and jokes and innovative way of teaching us stuff from the bible and helping us to grow!
Thank you serene for always being understanding and there for us whenever we need help!
Thank you pastor eric for all the sacrifices u have made like purposely sleeping over in church just for the sake of looking after us! it was quite sad when we went to the office to ask him if we cld leave, and he was just lying on that small SMALL couch sleeping, alone somemore, none of the our leaders cld stay. it was sad! Thank you!

And next i want to thank my friends from church, every single fren i have is a wonderful and great fren but i cant possibly mention all of them, so i'm only gonna like thank afew.

thank you...
yammy for being my punching bag and dinner confidante
bert for being a cool buddy
Lj & Z for bringing laughter
Gab for playing soc with me
joy for her faithful admin work in jam
van for being my partner in entertaining everyone esle. LOL.
liesel for her weird and eccentric behaviour
dina for doing so much for JAM behind the scenes
charisse for being fun to talk to
sam for being a cool msn companion
timmy&mos for occasionally joining us with bball
special thanks to jenisse for being there for me when im pissed and talking nonsense.LOL.once again, reiterating, nothing going on, just extremely good frens. XD

thank you God for 2007! May 2008 be a blast!

happy new year!

okay firstly happy new year everyone!
what was i thinking? going ahead with it. totally lost myself for a moment.
hmm yesterday, yam came my house early in the morning around 9 plus, we were supposed to meet at queenstown mrt at 9.30, but being me, im always late, i woke up at 9 am ! and i like to idle around and take my time to do stuff so obviously i wldnt be able to go to the mrt in time cos i need to use computer, bathe and stuff! lol. guess how i woke up? yammy being the guy that knows me so well, knows that im ALWAYS late, so he called me at 9 to ask me to "start walking" to the mrt! LOL. thats how i woke up, cos he called me. imagine if he didnt. so then, since i knew i wld be late, i asked him to come my house! LOL!
wake up dude.this wasnt the way it was meant to be.
so we left at 10.15 around there. LOL! We were supposed to meet my frens at 10am at the telok blangah court, and we werent really late, cos we reached same time as alot of ppl, lol so u can imagine. teenagers nowadays. tsk.... anyway there were ALOT of ppl there, all fairsians and 2 other guys, frens of keith, plus yammy, whom i brought for fun. it was a crappy soccer day man, my trapping was so good, i'm sure if u threw the ball at me a metre away, i wld somehow manage to ram it away.horrible.okay so after that we left around 2 liddat, cos no mood to play liao and have to meet some jammers at 3.30pm so we had to leave anyway. So we were deciding whether to go long john silvers for lunch or just go the queenstown coffee shop, in the end we went to the latter, da bao food to my house and eat. we left my house around 3.35. LOL late again.
is it what i think it is? or am i just thinking too much? sigh, its the wrong thing to think about nw isnt it?
darn celtics won lakers!(im a fan of lakers)
yay celtics won lakers!(im also a fan of celtics)


so when we reached the mrt, victor daryl and liesel were sitting there waiting alr, so we picked up our stuff and went to anchorpoint. when we reached anchorpoint, the 3 of them went to the food court, if thats what u call it, to wait for the others. Apparently, dina, the organiser who could not come, asked us to come at 3.30 TO CHOP SEATS. LOL! and the others would come at 4.30, but being ywavers, they would eventually only turn up around 5.30, 6. so. yammy and i went to sweet talk to buy bubble tea, and drink and have some manly talk. LOL! the other 3 were just waiting at the food court. and soon, jenisse arrived, then joy arrived, blah blah blah u noe the rest. oh ya we saw samkhoo vio and lejon eating dinner at the same place as well, so it was pretty cool yeah. joy made a JELLY CAKE, cool stuff, oh btw, 31st december is vanessa's "the queen" birthday, so the dinner was presumably meant for her. okay so rmb we were at the anchorpoint food court? supposed to eat dinner and stuff. guess wad. after eating joy cake, we left the place, without EATING! LOL! it was around 5 plus liddat. the queen wanted to go queensway, so the weirdo followed her to queensway while the boss led the rest of us to ikea, cos victor da man suggested we go there for the good food at the dunno where, 2nd level that one, dunno wad its called. so we went there at ate, and more ppl started turning up, yuetong, marcus, joel etc etc, at first we were sitting girls and boys mixed then SOMEHOW, thru the force of some external supernatural phenomenon, we split up and it became guys and girls seperated. LOL! i think that "phenomenon" is called vanessa. hhahahhahaha just kidding van! happy birthday! :)
i really dont want the same thing to happen.why do i keep rushing things.tsk.
okay after dinner we went downstairs to buy icecream, which only van ate, LOL! then liesel was eating some hogdog, hotdog i mean lol then we walked back to church for watchnight. the service was cool man, alot of ppl shared great testimonies that were really meaningful and stuff. Great to hear how God has worked miracles in everyone's life. I was really really tired, like half dead during the service, after after the sharings i was pretty awake already. lejon is the bomb, seriously. ridiculously funny. where wld i be w/o leBRON man... lol so after that we went down for break, 10.30 to 11pm to eat and stuff, then at 11pm we went back up to the sanctuary where our chinese brethren joined us, and we sang praises to the Lord, then deacon daniel soh gave us a wonderful wonderfully hilarious speech before we begun the count down according to ch 5 or issit ch 8? aiya same, i think they were both showing. anyway. i dunno why, but this year's countdown is really dead. really really dead. and i dun understand why, there is no "highness" nobody went crazy, to be honest, it was really boring. why?

after that we had sleepover in church.english youths only.last year's sleepover was really very fun for me at the very least, played captains ball till very very late like 4-5 am liddat, then after that play soccer with gabriel and amos, it was a blast. but this year. man, how do i describe this year's sleepover. to be honest. its boring, times...5? lol. we played capt's ball, halfway around 2am the lights went off, and we all figured it was programmed, as in inside the church office and it cant be changed, so it was extremely dark, not dark until cannot see anything la, but dark until cant play Properly. it was really pathetic, everyone was lethargic and lazy, me included, didnt feel like doing anything, didnt feel like sleeping, didnt feel like playing. ppl were just gathering around in the fellowship hall playing cards and we even had to resort to Connect 4. it wasnt DEAD DEAD boring, it was just DEAD boring. after awhile, some ppl started to go sleep cos there was really nothing to do, zach went to sleep, alot other ppl also went to sleep. then alot of ppl went up to the sanctuary, issit sanctuary or conference room? im not sure, they were watching the dance video and stuff of the rainbow concert. then gabriel and i were left with nothing to do. so we decided to play one on one soccer, exactly like last year. so we went at each other non stop for 2 plus hours. that was the most fun part of the sleepover. lol seriously.then gabriel had cramps in his both calves and his thigh muscles so we cldnt play anymore. then we just sat down and talked. sigh.

dun misunderstand me, but its seriously boring without jenisse and charisse.too bad they cldnt stay over, but hey! they missed nothing! seriously. darn, still remember last year i was talking to jenisse quite abit cos she didnt feel like playing captains ball. this year is like, omg boring man. no one to laugh at and tease. sigh. im reiterating, dun misunderstand the above paragraph.

after that, gabby victor yammy samson and i went to commonwealth long john silvers for breakfast, seriously man, LJS breakfast is the bomb. super super worth it and super super nice. seriously man.after that we all went home and i slept till 4.30 pm and now here i am blogging.
God you are in charge. always were, is, and always will be. You are God.My Lord.
tml is a new start, the first day of school for me, in acjc. my og is called darjee hahahaa cute name.i hope its fun man, and i dun screw up by doing stupid things and making a fool of myself. sigh. why do i feel so apathetic? im looking forward more to the release of my o level results then the 3 weeks of school im gonna have. at least 3 weeks passes fast. This year i have a resolution, its damn weird though. Last year, i was so slack, i'm pretty sure anymore relaxed i'd be dead. This year, im gonna stress myself out like mad. everything i can possibly join, i'll join, i wanna taste a day in the life of Joy! LOL! that'll be fun. Lol. commiting everything to God though.


here i stand, forgiven
here i stand, holy and righteous
you paid the price, when you laid down ur life
Jesus, i surrender all.

I'll walk with you in my heart x2
find me at the cross. down on knees.
Jesus i surrender all.