oh my, look at this usain bolt parody, i laughed my head off man. total joke!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
think about it.
what does it mean to behave like a different person? when someone who u think knows you tells you ur behaving like a different person. does it mean u've changed, or does it mean its been in you all along and u just never knew until a circumstance forced it out?
im way way off track. way off.
Friday, August 22, 2008
it was just 4 days.
i love my parents. i love my family. i love my friends. and most of all, i love God.
you'll only know what happiness feels like after u've experienced its opposite.
this one week has been hell for me, i have never felt so emotionally defeated in my life. lol, my parents have been in malaysia the whole week attending to my grandmother's stuff, and my bro has been in hostel at ntu. i have NEVER experienced loneliness in my life before. until this week.
tuesday i went with my bro to malaysia, straight after school i met him, reached malaysia went to the crematorium to meet my parents and my sister and my uncles and aunties. never seen my father cry so many times in one day before. lol more than i've ever seen him cry in my life. haha but well its his mom, so i guess its natural. so many times my eyes were hot and watery, but nothing could come out, like there was a blockage at my eyes..
returned to singapore after the cremation and lunch on wednesday. everybody was falling to the ground during the cremation. sigh... when i reached singapore, i felt dead again. my bro left for the hostel and i have no idea what my sister was doing in her room.
thursday woke up late, i have never appreciated my mum this much before, the small supposedly insignificant things like making sure im awake even though there is an alarm clock to get me up, all these things we often brush off. i love my mum man. went to school. after school went to play basketball and just let all that angst out. lol. after that i went home, reached hme around 6pm. washed up etc etc, 7pm my sister called me and told me she needed to go A&E (emergency) cos the clinic doctor told her that her headache wasnt a normal headache.
dont ask.
reached home around 10 sth, thank God my sister did not have to stay in the hospital.
i just reached home 30 mins ago. when i say my mum's slippers outside the door, i almost wanted to cry, i go so emotional my eyes started to water. i really missed my parents, and its been 4 days, ridiculous, like some little pathetic baby. i am the most pampered kid in the world. i really am. it took my grandma's death to see that, lets hope my eyes are alot sharper now.
you'll never appreciate what u have, till you know what its like to not have.
never.
Do not be discouraged, do not be afraid.
Be strong and courageous,
for the Lord your God
will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9
you'll only know what happiness feels like after u've experienced its opposite.
this one week has been hell for me, i have never felt so emotionally defeated in my life. lol, my parents have been in malaysia the whole week attending to my grandmother's stuff, and my bro has been in hostel at ntu. i have NEVER experienced loneliness in my life before. until this week.
tuesday i went with my bro to malaysia, straight after school i met him, reached malaysia went to the crematorium to meet my parents and my sister and my uncles and aunties. never seen my father cry so many times in one day before. lol more than i've ever seen him cry in my life. haha but well its his mom, so i guess its natural. so many times my eyes were hot and watery, but nothing could come out, like there was a blockage at my eyes..
returned to singapore after the cremation and lunch on wednesday. everybody was falling to the ground during the cremation. sigh... when i reached singapore, i felt dead again. my bro left for the hostel and i have no idea what my sister was doing in her room.
thursday woke up late, i have never appreciated my mum this much before, the small supposedly insignificant things like making sure im awake even though there is an alarm clock to get me up, all these things we often brush off. i love my mum man. went to school. after school went to play basketball and just let all that angst out. lol. after that i went home, reached hme around 6pm. washed up etc etc, 7pm my sister called me and told me she needed to go A&E (emergency) cos the clinic doctor told her that her headache wasnt a normal headache.
dont ask.
reached home around 10 sth, thank God my sister did not have to stay in the hospital.
i just reached home 30 mins ago. when i say my mum's slippers outside the door, i almost wanted to cry, i go so emotional my eyes started to water. i really missed my parents, and its been 4 days, ridiculous, like some little pathetic baby. i am the most pampered kid in the world. i really am. it took my grandma's death to see that, lets hope my eyes are alot sharper now.
you'll never appreciate what u have, till you know what its like to not have.
never.
Do not be discouraged, do not be afraid.
Be strong and courageous,
for the Lord your God
will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9
Monday, August 18, 2008
pastor eric says when u say ur bored, it implies u are self centred, and ur needs are not met. haha absurd but logical. BUT at this point of time, im disregarding all references my next statement has to my ego. I AM BORED.
okay since its spreading like wildfire, i'll let yall who read my blog(that of which im guessing is like less than 5 people, HOPEFULLY, u see this lack of confidence and low self esteem? u can help me by tagging, that will greatly improve my esteem! :D okay laughter aside, my paternal grandmother passed away on sunday, my mum recieved a phonecall from johor, yes granny is malaysian, then she had a heartattack so my mum and sis went immediately over to msia where my father already is.
i decided to stay back in singapore cos it was too much of a rush so im going to msia tml(tuesday) after school with my bro, the wake's on wednesday. yesterday after my mum and sis left, my bro left soon after to go back to his university hostel, so the house was left to me. the whole empty cold lonely pathetic house. okay lonely doesnt describe the hse, it describes me. lol, it was weird, i watched tv for like 5 hours cos i had no mood to do anything.
frankly i'm almost not affected, to the point i feel weird, she's my closest grandparent but we're still not amazingly close, perhaps its cos i was expecting it already. and so im gonna miss the entire wednesday, im so gonna die with my work.
i love camp rock.LOL, random, but important. if you dont know what it is, ur either above 40 or..... u live in a cave. its a new disney channel original movie starring demi lovato and joe jonas, guess where my current blog song comes from????? :D
really feels weird to be at home all by myself. today i came home to the house i left in the morning and it was in the same exact same condition, the windows closed to that exact same degree, nothing changed, nothing moved. i am so getting married. can u imagine going home to an empty house after work? depressionable.i dont think this word exists but in my dictionary it basically means, able to cause depression. :D
when ur loved one leaves, how would you feel? my friend said she never wants to think about it. but mental preparation works wonders. at least i think it does. does it?
oh wait, btw for all who read this post, im okay, trust me when i say it, lol. people dont seem to believe me when i say im okay, im NOT suppressing depression or feelings or whatever, i AM okay. thank you for the thought though. if you even thought of anything. lol.
oh wait did i forget to say i lost my phone last friday? yeah i lost my phone last friday, and no im not getting a new one, i dont want. at least not yet. :D
WHO MADE CHINA HIGH?
opium
okay since its spreading like wildfire, i'll let yall who read my blog(that of which im guessing is like less than 5 people, HOPEFULLY, u see this lack of confidence and low self esteem? u can help me by tagging, that will greatly improve my esteem! :D okay laughter aside, my paternal grandmother passed away on sunday, my mum recieved a phonecall from johor, yes granny is malaysian, then she had a heartattack so my mum and sis went immediately over to msia where my father already is.
i decided to stay back in singapore cos it was too much of a rush so im going to msia tml(tuesday) after school with my bro, the wake's on wednesday. yesterday after my mum and sis left, my bro left soon after to go back to his university hostel, so the house was left to me. the whole empty cold lonely pathetic house. okay lonely doesnt describe the hse, it describes me. lol, it was weird, i watched tv for like 5 hours cos i had no mood to do anything.
frankly i'm almost not affected, to the point i feel weird, she's my closest grandparent but we're still not amazingly close, perhaps its cos i was expecting it already. and so im gonna miss the entire wednesday, im so gonna die with my work.
i love camp rock.LOL, random, but important. if you dont know what it is, ur either above 40 or..... u live in a cave. its a new disney channel original movie starring demi lovato and joe jonas, guess where my current blog song comes from????? :D
really feels weird to be at home all by myself. today i came home to the house i left in the morning and it was in the same exact same condition, the windows closed to that exact same degree, nothing changed, nothing moved. i am so getting married. can u imagine going home to an empty house after work? depressionable.i dont think this word exists but in my dictionary it basically means, able to cause depression. :D
when ur loved one leaves, how would you feel? my friend said she never wants to think about it. but mental preparation works wonders. at least i think it does. does it?
oh wait, btw for all who read this post, im okay, trust me when i say it, lol. people dont seem to believe me when i say im okay, im NOT suppressing depression or feelings or whatever, i AM okay. thank you for the thought though. if you even thought of anything. lol.
oh wait did i forget to say i lost my phone last friday? yeah i lost my phone last friday, and no im not getting a new one, i dont want. at least not yet. :D
WHO MADE CHINA HIGH?
opium
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Monday Night 4th August 2008. Fairfield's 120th Founders Day Dinner celebration at Swisshotel.
to think that the last time we could meet up officially as a whole level just passed in the blink of an eye.
Jerome and i met at queenstown mrt, he took 2 million years to come! gosh ALWAYS late. not that im any better, but still! :D im so gonna get destroyed for this.lol. we took cab together to the place and when we got there, we were like WHOA, everyone was SOO well dressed, madness! my mama told me not to bring blazer, later look out of place, when i went there, i BARELY saw people WITHOUT blazers! LOL.
i look constipated because i was trying to keep my eyes away. i hate flash! Pretty Cuifen! treasure this compliment, its the first i've ever given you and ever will! LOL.
Alden and i!
In memory of aiwee who is far far away and cldnt come for the dinner, this is a picture of Jingle mingle and... oh my whats my funny name! i forgot!
Brothers forever. Jerome and i.
Christie! The shumei wannabe. she hits about half the strength of shumei. learning learning..
Joc thong!
BRIAN CHAN! lol full of crap.
This photo above is actually one of my favourites taken the whole night, surprisingly though, considering the people IN IT, namely laura and rachel kinda hate me. lol. just kidding! whats life without a little humour! :) and then theres nicol. all those sec 1 times at my hse field. talk about nostalgic.
4E 2007! the best class i've ever had and i think i may ever HAVE had. the 2 years of memories, the screaming and the singing. i would go through the dry routine days ALL over again if i could.
SHUMEI IN A DRESS, OMG................................................................................... :D this statement, if seen by shumei, was warrant me at least 10 hits on my back. she hits as hard as zijian mind you, YES TAN ZIJIAN. so be afraid, be very very afraid, cos I AM!!!!!!!!!!
Jenisse! :D friends forever!
blur blur picture, this is what happens when people with unsteady hands take picture of two ridiculously good looking people! :D
Neo, mok, darren. lol darren's facial hair is like whoa....
Bao Bao!
Julia tan!
Izzac LIM! STOP s_ _ _ _ _ _!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeo! Joy yeo! look at that! picture of glam! gosh! my class mate and cell mate! In all you do, JIA YOU!
DEREK LAM! hahah look at our shirt and tie colours, lol so cool.
Jerome again! looking good! you owe me 2 botak treats. TWO.
Allicia!
COMBINED HUMANITIES CLASS! i love this class, its a mixture of people form 4E and 4F, taught by Mrs Choe who's there in the middle, gosh, she is really the best teacher i've ever had, her patience, the way she portrays herself, ALL THE WAY MRS CHOE! btw this is the subject in which i won the book prize award on friday, getting top in the level. i got 54, 50 and 51 for my sec 3 mid years, end years and sec 4 mid years respectively before my 78 in prelims, and all i can thank and SHOULD thank are Mrs Choe and God.
to think that the last time we could meet up officially as a whole level just passed in the blink of an eye.
Jerome and i met at queenstown mrt, he took 2 million years to come! gosh ALWAYS late. not that im any better, but still! :D im so gonna get destroyed for this.lol. we took cab together to the place and when we got there, we were like WHOA, everyone was SOO well dressed, madness! my mama told me not to bring blazer, later look out of place, when i went there, i BARELY saw people WITHOUT blazers! LOL.
i look constipated because i was trying to keep my eyes away. i hate flash! Pretty Cuifen! treasure this compliment, its the first i've ever given you and ever will! LOL.
Alden and i!
In memory of aiwee who is far far away and cldnt come for the dinner, this is a picture of Jingle mingle and... oh my whats my funny name! i forgot!
Brothers forever. Jerome and i.
Joc thong!
BRIAN CHAN! lol full of crap.
This photo above is actually one of my favourites taken the whole night, surprisingly though, considering the people IN IT, namely laura and rachel kinda hate me. lol. just kidding! whats life without a little humour! :) and then theres nicol. all those sec 1 times at my hse field. talk about nostalgic.
4E 2007! the best class i've ever had and i think i may ever HAVE had. the 2 years of memories, the screaming and the singing. i would go through the dry routine days ALL over again if i could.
SHUMEI IN A DRESS, OMG................................................................................... :D this statement, if seen by shumei, was warrant me at least 10 hits on my back. she hits as hard as zijian mind you, YES TAN ZIJIAN. so be afraid, be very very afraid, cos I AM!!!!!!!!!!
Jenisse! :D friends forever!
blur blur picture, this is what happens when people with unsteady hands take picture of two ridiculously good looking people! :D
Neo, mok, darren. lol darren's facial hair is like whoa....
Bao Bao!
Julia tan!
Izzac LIM! STOP s_ _ _ _ _ _!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeo! Joy yeo! look at that! picture of glam! gosh! my class mate and cell mate! In all you do, JIA YOU!
DEREK LAM! hahah look at our shirt and tie colours, lol so cool.
Jerome again! looking good! you owe me 2 botak treats. TWO.
Allicia!
COMBINED HUMANITIES CLASS! i love this class, its a mixture of people form 4E and 4F, taught by Mrs Choe who's there in the middle, gosh, she is really the best teacher i've ever had, her patience, the way she portrays herself, ALL THE WAY MRS CHOE! btw this is the subject in which i won the book prize award on friday, getting top in the level. i got 54, 50 and 51 for my sec 3 mid years, end years and sec 4 mid years respectively before my 78 in prelims, and all i can thank and SHOULD thank are Mrs Choe and God.
all the memories, all the friends. we may have moved on, but our hearts still remain with fairfield. i always thought ms elaine lim was being lame when she kept talking about how great fairfield was and how we would miss it the moment we left it and we would be dying to come back, how we shld always thank our teachers and be grateful for the school all that stuff. now i realise, not a SINGLE word she said wasnt true.
To all my secondary school mates, for all the times i was an ass, which im presuming was more often than not, im sorry. thank you for the memories for the fun and for the friendship. this is not just to 4E students but to all fairsians 2007. The best batch ever, the friendships dont just stop here. 40 years from now, people will still be talking about fairfield, and the batch of 2007 will be among the best mentioned.
Fairfield. 120 years gone, this is just the beginning.
Friday, August 1, 2008
FAIRFIELD 120th FOUNDERS DAY CEREMONY
today was founders day ceremony in fairfield! ytd i went to tiong bahru plaza after school to meet my mama and we went shopping! yay yay, so fun, i bought a pair of leather shoes for my founders day ceremony today and a long sleeve G2000 shirt for the founders day dinner on monday night! so fun!
man, today, the moment school ended at 3.30, i was just so excited to go back to fairfield, i went to get joy's and my blazer from the blazer room and the whole bunch of us were heading back to our alma mater from AC! i was screaming and shouting my head off, i just felt so weirdly high, so free, to be going back to fairfield, when i stepped inside and i saw the different people from my batch, i just felt SO at home. like gosh, THIS is what a school is meant to be like. THIS is what a school is SUPPOSED to be like.
i had SO much fun catching up and hanging out with my sec 4 mates all over again. fairfield just pulls everyone together, i cannot believe what a family we were. one whole level, one whole clique.
Below are pictures with my sec 4 friends, we wear blazers cos we are prize winners, academic or special awards etc. I, miraculously, through God's ridiculously amazing grace, got top in comb human(geog) so thats why im wearing a blazer, yes i know OMG caleb with an academic award! which is why i say, through God's ridiculously amazing grace. :D To God be all glory.
haiz, jingming, never change ah......
impressive joy with the carrie kenyon award for something to do with outstanding character i think lol, wow what a surprise! never thought she'd get it!(if u cannot sense the sarcasm, u shld go and eat chilli padi.)
leon and lilin! i miss leon and all his nonsense, the joy and fun he brought to the class whilst being serious in his studies and always wanting to do well.gosh leon do well in jj man! lilin, fairfield's top student and winner of about a million book prizes(top in a certain subject etc).
my parents! :D
man, today, the moment school ended at 3.30, i was just so excited to go back to fairfield, i went to get joy's and my blazer from the blazer room and the whole bunch of us were heading back to our alma mater from AC! i was screaming and shouting my head off, i just felt so weirdly high, so free, to be going back to fairfield, when i stepped inside and i saw the different people from my batch, i just felt SO at home. like gosh, THIS is what a school is meant to be like. THIS is what a school is SUPPOSED to be like.
i had SO much fun catching up and hanging out with my sec 4 mates all over again. fairfield just pulls everyone together, i cannot believe what a family we were. one whole level, one whole clique.
Below are pictures with my sec 4 friends, we wear blazers cos we are prize winners, academic or special awards etc. I, miraculously, through God's ridiculously amazing grace, got top in comb human(geog) so thats why im wearing a blazer, yes i know OMG caleb with an academic award! which is why i say, through God's ridiculously amazing grace. :D To God be all glory.
haiz, jingming, never change ah......
impressive joy with the carrie kenyon award for something to do with outstanding character i think lol, wow what a surprise! never thought she'd get it!(if u cannot sense the sarcasm, u shld go and eat chilli padi.)
leon and lilin! i miss leon and all his nonsense, the joy and fun he brought to the class whilst being serious in his studies and always wanting to do well.gosh leon do well in jj man! lilin, fairfield's top student and winner of about a million book prizes(top in a certain subject etc).
my parents! :Dmore pictures another day, i cant wait for the dinner on monday! GOSH im gonna have SO many more pictures! the thought that the dinner on monday will mark the last time our level can officially get tgt, just saddens me. these past 4 years have been blowout amazing, the friends i have made, the memories i have, if i could turn back time and relive my sec 4 year, i would walk so slow a minute would seem like a year.
God is amazing. how foolish we often blame him for "absent" blessings when we just cant get it into our thick skull that they are in our blind spot and only by walking forward will they come into sight.
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