This post consists of the worst photos ever posted by me. Almost every single photo is blurred because people simply do not know how to steady their hands. grr. implicit in this statement is the assumption that the photos which are horrible were not taken by me. okay maybe 1 or 2.
Met jasmine putu for lunch as ASTONS in the Cathay. must admit, first time ever been there. yeah go ahead laugh at me.but anw the food was not bad, but ridiculously filling i must say. the above dish was shared by jasmine and putu, i was so anxious to eat i forgot to take picture of my dish!
Met jasmine putu for lunch as ASTONS in the Cathay. must admit, first time ever been there. yeah go ahead laugh at me.but anw the food was not bad, but ridiculously filling i must say. the above dish was shared by jasmine and putu, i was so anxious to eat i forgot to take picture of my dish!Joy came in the middle of our meal to join us and we went to watch THE PROPOSAL together. it was quite cool actually. it was a funny movie. worth watching! Something about the show really struck me. If you watch the show, i'm pretty sure you'll agree with me that if you were in the guy's shoes you would NEVER have imagined ending up falling in love with your bossy, push around, insensitive boss. (these words are all euphemisms, you can substitute them with the singaporean language, i.e. mixed dialects,languages, all-in-one words) But the fact is that they really ended up falling in love with each other. i know its really hollywoodish, these kinda love themes, the unexpected than fall in love nonsense. but it really got me thinking, why is it not possible it happened to us in real life? Like now we REALLY REALLY are adamant that we will never end up with that girl across the room. But really, other than God, who's to say?
After Putu and Jasmine went off, joy and i walked around plaza sing and got vanessa chocs for her senior recital, then made our way to holland to meet the other jammers for dinner!
Horrible photo. Taken by a passerby. seriously, why cant people STEADY their hands. but its my fault partially, i forgot HOW to turn on the shake thingy. not forgot to. forgot HOW to. LOL. :)
NUS High for Vanessa's Senior recital! :D
She plays the flute and piano. she's really good. i mean duh rite? thats WHY she has the senior recital isnt it.
this is the book outside the hall where you write all the well wishes and stuff. vanessa asked liesel to help her make the book. its REALLY well done. stuff sewed on and all that. liesel is really an Art genius.
JAM.And then we went home, on the walk to the bus stop, we were really high and jumping around talking nonsense. really reminded us of Gang 1311 in the Church Retreat cos it was like the same group of people save for 1 or 2. Like it was fun and all. But there were many more things on my mind. Little pics of our high times because we used charisse's camera. i was too lazy to use mine. shld be up on facebook. maybe then i'll post one or two.
ONLY CONTINUE READING IF YOU'RE EMO/IN A REFLECTIVE MOOD.
On the bus home i was thinking to myself. I am really a creature so full of flaws that when im alone, i just CANNOT tell myself with conviction that i have strengths, that i am good for SOMETHING. Yes, seriously. when i'm with my friends, i can joke about all my strengths, how good i am, how confident i am, how much better i am compared to masses of people. But when you're alone and in the quiet. That is who you truly are, and truly, i am just a flawed being, undeserving of the Grace of God so abundantly poured on us by our Lord.
Just today alone. i was counting the number of incidents i wish i could edit vis-a-vis time travel and just remove it or correct the way i behaved. i just lost count. i really just lost count. the number of times i behaved or spoke or thought in a disgraceful manner. Its these reflections at the end of my days that really leave me speechless, that really remind me that the number of things i have to boast about is as numerous as the number of Planet Mars there are. 1. That i'm a follower of Christ.
I was just reflecting and i realised everytime i feel full of confidence and im brimming with belief in myself, i speak fast and confidently. i start to speak faster than i think. and when i dont think, i become insensitive, i start behaving in an ungodly manner, in a disgraceful manner. its really amazing how i can make the same mistakes over and over again when they are just so ridiculously close to me. the number of times i say something and i just utterly regret it the NEXT second. on the bus..
As i was thinking about all these, i was just really reminded of Simon Peter in the bible, when he first started following God, he was SO FULL of vigour and conviction, he would speak so confidently. he was the only one who answered correctly when Jesus Christ asked who he was. The one true living messiah he said. How powerful. How much faith. Of the 12 disciples he was the ONLY one who dared to ask Jesus to call him forth onto the seawaters and he actually walked on water. how amazing. It really reminded me of the passion i felt in my heart when i first became a christian in sec 3. God was really all my life desired. I really did not CARE about anything esle, and each morning i woke up with a fire burning fiercely. i fire i thought would never burn out. but one that is fading now.
how many times Peter faulted. how many times. he lost faith when his eyes moved from the Lord to the storm and he started sinking. He was always full of pride. the unwritten unofficial "leader" of the twelve disciples. Always the first to speak, more often than not, flawed words came forth because of the lack of thoughts that accompanied his words. When Jesus was crucified. That was the major incident. THREE TIMES Peter rejected the Lord. saying he was never his disciple, saying he never knew Jesus Christ. how disgraceful and shameful is that? everytime i read that portion of the bible i snigger because i think i will never do what he did. Do you know how ridiculous that thought is?
Today itself, i rejected Jesus Christ more than 20 times. yes i can even LIST the incidents. and it really just drags my heart down. But we have the Grace of God. When Jesus died for us, our sins would no longer EVER count again us. I used to admire Paul in the Bible for how steadfast he was. He ALMOST seemed perfect after he converted from Saul to Paul. He ALMOST seemed like Jesus. and i really wanted to be like him, cos Jesus is perfect but at least Paul is human. But now, more and more i see how admirable Peter is. After he realised that the prophesy that he would reject Jesus Christ 3 times came true. His passion for Christ shined brighter than ever before. He died, crucified, hung on the cross UPSIDE DOWN because he said he was not worthy to die the same way the Lord died. HOW SICK IS THAT. everytime i think of that my hair stands. goosebumps. my jaws drop. how can someone have passion for Christ as ridiculously immense as that? But i know if i keep my eyes on the Lord, and i move my eyes back everytime i am shaken, if i keep doing this till the end of time, one day, i will be like Peter.
I know right now that the Lord is using me mightily in His Kingdom. but with even greater vigour and conviction, i know that The Lord will use me for even GREATER purposes in the future. after i have matured and developed. after i have grown in the Lord like Peter did over the course of his life. How wonderful is that thought. Amen.
